going berserk.

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I just finished watching PBB Teen Edition. Haay, grabe, call me jologs but I'm hooked! Gwapogi talaga ni Gerald!! Especially when he talks in that Taglish twang. Haha. I used to like Fred because he's macho, but I quickly got over him. Hehe! =) Gerald is cuter! And hey, he is waay cuter than Sam Milby. Plus what made me like him even more is that he plays basketball, and nung first night, the song that was playing when he was being introduced was "I Don't Want To Be," the theme song of OTH. Oh di ba?! But of course, my heart STILL belongs to Nathan Scott ♥ so to the hundreds thousands of Pinays drooling over Gerald, don't worry -- he's all yours. Crush lang naman eh. =)

HOT!

HottERRRRRR!! ♥

OTH Season 3 is over. =( On May 18th, the results will come out. i hope they do get signed up for a fourth season.
Scrubs na! =) Toodles.
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9:10 pm

It is SOOO hot. I hate it. When the sun is scorching hot outside, its rays peeping through the windows and doors, its heat entering every pore of my body..ack! I abhor it. It sucks. I want to take a bath -- again, and again, and again.

And when I feel so hot, my mind clouds, my eyes blur.
I go berserk.
Any minute now, I'll be similar to a wild animal who escaped from the zoo. Ack.
Waaaah.
Hopefully not.

Yesterday, I went to the school for a meeting for the Freshman Orientation on the 26th. The SC and the Cordiality (ehem!) are tasked to take care of it. I'm supposed to talk about the Clubs and Orgs, which if you ask me, is pretty easy. Haha. Anyway, my mind immediately flashed two years back. Nostalgic-mode. I suddenly remembered my eager anticipation for the Freshman Orientation and the opening of classes. "I'm gonna be in high school! I'm gonna rock" I thought. I was counting the days before the start of my high school life. "Life's going to be great!" That was my mantra. I kept repeating to myself that I'm going to be a new person, have a new life, blah blah. Everything would be just like in the movies, chick-flicks and all. I was so excited. But now? I don't know. I'm not sure if I really "rocked" the way I was supposed to, or if life really turned out to be something great. I've had my ups and downs, but nothing spectacular like what you see in the cinemas. All I know for sure is that, high school is one huge rollercoaster ride. It can make you throw up, gag, or even want to jump off the track. But what sucks is that we're all strapped in our seats, and it's either we curse and hate it for life, or just scream our lungs out and enjoy what's left of the ride. Only a few more weeks to go. Waaaaaah.

Tomorrow, I'll be leaving again for the YFC Youth Camp with the Hopefools. =) Trix invited us and of course, who are we to say no to God?! It's about time we do what we have to do and profess our love to the One who deserves it the most. Amen! ♥

The number of people who've had their hands on the May ish of Candy has freakishly doubled over the last few days. Whoooooa.

Jack's Mannequin is love. ♥

Fall Out Boy is looove. ♥♥

Jimmy Eat World is looooooooove. ♥♥♥

(Photos courtesy of this site. These shots were all captured when the artists performed at Tric, the local all-ages club from One Tree Hill =p)

23 is the only thing that keeps me sane right now. No one else will have me like it does. Man, I love that song. Jersey number pa ni Nathan. Aaaaaayyyy! =)

Much love goes out to Cars for the gorgeous blinkies she made for me! =) Bombastarr-ific. ♥

"It's been fifty years, fifty long years since I've done this. Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is the measure of a successful life, then some would say that I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. And recognize that every day won't be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair remember it's only in the black of night you see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, or stumble and fall, cause most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination."

-- Coach Whitey Durham from OTH

just so you know..

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!

Still too tired to blog about Thailand though. Words are not enough to EXPRESS everything about it! All the elephants, the shopping sessions..aaah! Just thinking about it just makes my heart flip. =) In other words, I'm in love with Thailand (with Bangkok most especially)!! I'm planning on posting a photo blog (because I freakin' forgot my Multiply password..harhar) here, but I haven't been able to upload the photos yet, so wait wait muna. =)

One fine day, I was browsing through the pages of my favorite local magazine Candy, when I came across the question "Who's the Hottest Boy On the Planet?" and obviously my mind, my heart and my soul suddenly turned into Nathan-mode. Of course, Nathan Scott is THE hottest (sizzling!) guy in the planet -- well in my planet, at least. I immediately sent my entry and attached my photo and eventually forgot about it. I mean, seriously, I wasn't expecting it to be published or anything.

Until NOW.

Who's the hottest boy on the planet?
Nathan Scott (played by James Lafferty) because he's sooo cute, he's a great basketball player, and he loves Haley to death. Now that's hot! :)
-- Karla Bernardo

There it is. May 2006 issue of the most popular teen magazine in the Philippines, my face and my answer was PUBLISHED. Yes. Published. Printed. On paper. For everyone to see. On page 74. So does this make me a published writer? Haha. As if. And now, I don't know if I'm supposed to feel happy or embarrassed with this whole thing. I mean, my face and my name staring at me on a magazine! Edi alam na ng buong mundo na adik ako kay Nathan!! =) Then again, why should I be ashamed?! I'm in LOOOOOVE with Nathan Scott! And the world needs to know that! =) I have the right to claim him to myself! I just wish I sent a much prettier photo. Hardy harhar! Next thing you know, I'll be the cover girl. Then a superstar. Haaayy. Kapal. Well just get yourself a copy (nyak, feeling artista!!) na lang. Oh! The crazy things one does for love. I love you, Nathan Scott!!

Another huge surprise:

Gossip Girl #10: Would I Lie To You

Aah!! I cannot believe it! The ninth book hasn't even been released, and now the tenth one comes along! Wowness. Hail thee, Cecily Von Ziegesar. I can't wait!! Hmm..I wonder why that's the title. I smell controversy! Oh gosh. I know I love Gossip Girl.

On May 3 (that's tomorrow Philippine time) the third season of One Tree Hill will finally end. Waah!! =( It was the best season ever, I swear. I've read a couple of spoilers and it just makes me want to cry because..well, I'm not going to spill the details! All I know is that OTH will be on a season break and will hopefully be back this fall (around September). However, as I've told you before, OTH is still on the verge of cancellation (see Feb26 post) so there's a fifty-fifty chance that they'll be back for a fourth season. So I'm asking for your help again. Please, please, please help me save my favorite show EVER by voting here and here. One vote would be greatly appreciated by me, and of course all the other OTH addicts out there =)

My mom's calling me na. PC time over. Ciao, ciao! =) Missed you guys!


"It was her and me
Waltzing in our heads
All by ourselves
And as she passed me by
I could see it in her eyes
Everywhere she goes, she goes there knowing
I just wanna be with her.."
-- Everywhere She Goes by Across The Sky

love me=)

Happy Birthday Cars and Trixie!! Labyu!

Yaay! I'm here again! Hehe. And I'm back with a new layout. Man, I miss updating this blog. Anyway, I came home last Friday and boy, am I exhausted. All I wanted to do was lie down on my soft bed, eat delicious home-cooked food and take a bath with hot water. Whoo. The leadership was not so good compared to the previous years, but I can say it was okay. I made new friends from Thailand! And I'm going to call them when I go there! Hehe. Of course, I made friends in other schools as well. Okay so it was a pretty crappy training because of that boring speaker, but what the hell, it's still fun. =) Rating? Hmm. 6.5/10

About the layout..well, it's just simple (as usual) but I actually LOVE it! Haha. I was playing around Adobe again and I guess everything just fell into place. You know you love me is actually the title of the second Gossip Girl book, just for the information of everybody. I know it sounds mayabang, but hey! It's my blog. And besides, I know I'm lovable. HAHA. =)

I cannot believe I'm leaving on Tuesday. Wow. And then next week will be the youth camp for YFC. I really am a busy girl. Woohoo. Well at least I didn't waste my summer. Hehe.

I'm in section A!! =) Mom enrolled me last Thursday and I'm with ALL my friends! I am SO HAPPY! I bet this year is going to be a blast. Wow. I'm officially a junior. Some say it's hard, others say it's easy..well, it's up to me to find out, right? I just hope I can do better this year. I'm crossing my fingers! *wink*

I'm still feeling like crap so I'm not going to post a lot of pictures muna. Next time na lang. Missed you guys! Oh and by the way, I already updated the links. Please tell me if I made a mistake or if I still need to change a few things. Comments will be appreciated! Mwah! =)

Me and Neill before leaving.


Me and Trixie at the tent before dinner.


Me and Cathe before our presentation. Whee! =)


The Too-longs: Trix, me, Nica and Cathe =)


Neill and me with our Thai friend, Aom.

"You know I can't smile without you,
I can't smile without you,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.."
-- Can't Smile Without You by Barry Manilow

man, it is so freakin' hot outside.

I cannot believe it. One whole week of no blogging, no internet, no computer. That was my sacrifice. And I was able to do it. Whee! =)

Note: sabog post ahead.

Well I want to say I'm back, but it's not for good since I'll be leaving on Tuesday for the Leadership Training and then the week after that is our Bangkok trip (yeaaahhhh!) so I'm still not back permanently. But anyway, I'm glad that finally my fingers are really typing on a real keyboard and I'm actually blogging.

I've watched episodes 11 - 17 of OTH. And all I can say is: OH MY GOD. It's is soooooo good. Everything is starting to heat up and the story just keeps on getting better. At some point, I felt like crying because everyting seemed so real. The intensity of the last few episodes were unbelievable. And I'm not exaggerating here. Season 3 is really the best season so far. I'm not gonna spill any beans so you just have to watch and find out for yourselves. =)

As much as I want to put this thought at the back of my head, I can't because it seems like everywhere I go, wherever I turn, something seems to remind me of the freakin' date. I know, I know, it's just the 16th. But soon, it's going to be May 1st, then the next thing you know, it's June. And it seems so fast, really. Tapos on Thursday (I think?!) will be our enrollment. Then soon, it'll be the distribution of books. And a few weeks later, it'll be the start of classes. Ahh! NO! Well, as much as I want to stop time and have a summer vacation all year long, I can't. So I guess I'll just have to make the most out of the remaining weeks left. Because when I do, I'll have nice memories of the summer before junior year that I can share to my friends. Haha. Well, I hope you do too. May is still after all, 30 days full of fun and sun, so might as well enjoy! =)

Coupling tonight! Whoopee!

Sheesh, it is so damn HOOOOOOT. I don't know about you guys but I hate the heat, especially if it's like this. Call me killjoy, but it just makes me feel so uncomfortable that I don't feel like doing anything. So right now, I'm useless. Argh. I hope it rains.

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The other day, my lola was clearing the so-called junk in her closet and who knew those junk would be treasures?! They were old bags my mom and titas used to own, and since wala naman ng gagamit, I snagged a few! They're bee-yoo-tee-ful. So vintage. =) No need to buy myself a new school bag. Hooray! Anyway, the rest, binenta namin sa ukay ukay. Haha. I'll show you the pics soon.
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By the way, to all the people who tagged and commented: much love goes out to all of you. And to those who were asking me to change their links or exhange links with them, I'll try to update asap. I may not be able to do it now, but I'll try to do so before I leave on Tuesday. I hope you guys understand.

Okay, quite a long post. Anyway, Happy Easter! I hope that this year, we all realize how important Jesus' resurrection is, and I hope that it would not be just another event but something that will encourage us to renew ourselves and change for the better. Love to all! =)


"I read your letter
The one you left when you broke into my house
I'm retracing every step you made
And you said you meant it
And there's a piece of me in every single
second of every single day
But if it's true then tell me how it got this way?"
-- The Mixed Tape by Jack's Mannequin

and i'm still alive.

1. I'm staying at my lola's for Holy Week.
2. I'm at the local mall blogging.
3. I brought my iPod with me..and it's filled with new songs! Oh yeah.
4. I bought white eyeliner and some eye gloss. Haha. Bebot.
5. My tita bought me a new book.
6. Nica burned me episodes 11 - 17!! I'm too lazy to download in our PC and since she already downloaded every episode, I just asked her to burn it all so that I'd have something to watch here. (Thanks a LOOOOT, Nix! :p)
7. I found out that Paramita's lead singer was a Paulinian from St. Paul Manila. Coolness! =)
8. I saw the pics of Chad's new girlfriend (so much uglier than Sophia Bush!!), Hilarie Burton's husband (yep, they tied the knot since Season 2) and Bethany Joy Galeotti's hubby (lead singer of the band Enation). And I've got one word to describe all of them: ick.
9. My grade in Bio increased by TWO points! Woohoo. And my fourth quarter grades are so much better than third quarter's. I'm proud of myself. Haha.
10. April is about to end. That means it's almost May already..then it's June. Ahh! No!
11. I'm really loving this show Coupling. It's like the British version of Friends. It's aired every Sunday night at Star World.
12. We have Jack TV and Star World at my lola's house! Hello, hello, That 70's Show and Scrubs! =)
13. I can't wait for Gossip Girl.
14. I'm enjoying my new flipflops. *ehem, ehem*
15. Nathan Scott is getting hotter and hotter every episode. Ahh! I love you, Nathan Scott! More than you'll ever know.

Aww. I love it. =)

"I'm two quarters and a heart down
And I don't want to forget how your voice sounds
These words are all I have so I'll write them
So you need them just to get by"
-- Dance Dance by Fall Out Boy

only in your dreams.

That's the title of the 9th and newest installment to the Gossip Girls series!! Ooh, I just can't wait for it! I think it's coming out this May.

Gossip Girl #9: Only in Your Dreams

Welcome to New York City's Upper East Side, where the girls are dazzling, the guys are gorgeous, and the summer heat is the perfect excuse to throw a fabulous roof-deck pool party. As if we need a reason!

It's our last summer together before heading off to college, and things are sizzling -- no, it's not just the weather. Despite that steamy kiss on graduation night, Blair, Serena, and Nate have gone their separate ways...though not for long. Blair is off to London with her English Lord boyfriend, Serena's about to become a movie star -- as if she wasn't a star already! -- and Nate's rolling up his well-worn khakis and heading to the Hamptons. Back in New York, Dan and Vanessa are rekindling their love. Fiery! Watch out, this summer is going to be hotter than ever.

Isn't it beautiful?! And the synopsis was quite intriguing as well! (btw, got that here) I wonder what will happen next. The 8th one finished off with a REALLY big surprise at the end. For those of you who haven't read the series yet, well what are you doing?! Go and grab yourself a copy NOW!! =) It's quite pricey but it's definitely worth it. And it is true, it has the effect of gossip itself because once you start, you wouldn't want to put the book down. Well at least we don't gossip about real people. Okay na yung sa book lang. Hehe. =)

I'll be soooo busy in the last few weeks of April. Haha, feeling superstar. Thus, I might not be able to update frequently but I'll try.

Happy birthday again to Mikka (22), Cars (23) and Trixie (23)!
Love to all. =)

oh, the tangled web we weave.

What I did today:

1. I went to school for the pre-Leadership Training preparation.
2. I "proxied" for the second year level rep (so I was an SC for a day..haha!) and ended up being a part of the Cordiality. It sounds important though I'm not exactly sure what it's for. Oh well.
3. I slept from 1-6 pm. Woohoo! And I'm still quite sleepy. *yawn*

What I'm currently loving:

1. Vanilla ice cream with chocolate syrup! *yuuuuuuum!*
2. Our Bangkok trip is fast approaching.
3. The song "23" by Jimmy Eat World. And "Feeling A Moment" by Feeder. And "Halo" by Haley James-Scott.
   

Why I'm currently in love with 23:

1. Because of the above-mentioned song. Oh, I looove it!
2. It's Nathan Scott's jersey number! Aaaaah! :)
3. Because there are two people who will be celebrating their birthdays on that day this April: Cars and Trixie! Mikka will celebrate hers too, only it's on the 22nd and she's in Tarlac. Oh well! Happy Birthday to you guys!

When I first heard 23, I was like, "Okay? Where's the song?!" because the instrumental part in the beginning took one and a half minutes! But when I heard the song, it actually gave meaning to the saying "It's worth the wait," because it is. After listening to it, I was left stunned simply because the melody was great and the lyrics was good. I know, I know, I've drooled over a lot of songs already but I say you must give this one a chance. It really IS good. It's quite long, yes, but the message is so beautiful. For seven whole minutes, I felt so connected, alone, happy, sad, confused -- all at the same time. I wanted everyone to hear the song and yet I felt like I just wanted the song to be mine. It's complicated but yeah, basically that's how it feels. Another song I'm currently loving is "Feeling A Moment" by Feeder. I believe I have posted some parts of the lyrics in my previous posts. Anyway, the message is actually simple but when you put the words and the melody together, it has woven such a wonderful song. It was played in the first episode of Season 3. I don't know if it's the song or if it's the scene in which it was played but somehow listening to it brings shivers to my spine. Especially the "wooh.. ooh.." part. Haha. =)

Is life really complicated or is it simple and WE just make it complicated? I guess I can pretty much say that I have pondered over that thought for quite some time now. At first I was sure that life is complicated. But when I look back at past experiences, I think I'm beginning to go to the other side. Maybe we really are the only ones making it hard for us. Basically life only gives us two answers to almost anything: A yes or a no, a right or a left, a good or a bad. But how come it seems so bad? Maybe because sometimes we don't take either way. I know some people who instead of jut choosing would rather make a way of their own. And I don't blame them because sometimes both ways are not okay for us. I honestly do that sometimes, you know, be a drama queen. And I don't know why I can't just say what I want to say or do what I have to do because more often than not I just do this whole hide-and-seek withmy feelings and I end up feeling worse. Then I complain, "Life sucks!" when in fact I know that there is a way out, I just don't know why I won't do it. And don't tell me you haven't felt this way ever. Oh, the tangled web we weave. Writing this paragraph will not answer my question, but how about you guys? What do you think? Is life really a jungle or do we just make it seem that way? Food for thought. =)

I just finished reading the 8th Gossip Girl installment. And all I can say is: whoa!! =)

BTW, the hot boytoy I posted in my previous entry is Nathan Scott. Now do you understand why I'm soooo in-love with him?! Waaah!

Can't get enough of him. Aaaah! *drool* =)


It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine"
-- 23 by Jimmy Eat World