woof woof. bark bark. arf arf.

Wow! Six hours and a couple more minutes to go and hello 2006! Another year full of hopefully happiness and lesser pain. Whatever. Twelve more months of life. Yipee.

Last night we watched the Pyro Olympics along Macapagal. We weren't on the exact place it was held, we were somewhere along the tiangges along with a good number of people. My, my we waited for 2 hours! And that was just for the first country. Then another 2 hours for the next one. But the wait is worth it. The fireworks display was fantastic. I must admit, I was so amazed I even ooh-ed and aah-ed with the crowd. Harhar. So anyway, while waiting I was thinking of how life for 2006 might be. As I watched the fireworks display, I kinda remembered what I used to say to myself when I was down. That life was just like the sky, sometimes sunny, sometimes rainy, sometimes cloudy and sometimes just plain dark, like the night. It changes and it's normal. Watching the fireworks reminded me of something. Fireworks don't last very long, just a few seconds. But they look so beautiful, and they are so bright and colorful that it doesn't matter how long they stay in the sky, we always remember how fantastic they were. And after the fireworks display, they're gone but we will always treasure the moments we had when we saw them. The reaction, the amazement, the happy feeling. I can say this year has been full of 'fireworks' for me. I didn't really enjoy it that much unlike the other years, but I can say that a lot of good little things happened during the three hundred and sixty five days I've spent. They didn't last long but they certainly warmed my heart or put a smile on my face. And you know the saying, "The smallest flame is the one that burns the brightest"? Well that goes out to all the special little happenings in my life. You see, I entered 2005 with a heartbreak. I just came from a bad fight and everything was sort of in a mess. Then came second year and obviously, it wasn't the best year I had. But there were simple things that happened to me and though they weren't huge or life-altering, I can say they were pretty special and they made me stronger. Like the Intrams during my freshman year. Everything sort of fell in their respective places after that. I had a nasty accident but so what? I sang on stage for Rivermaya. :p Or the Cadbury Pinky bar Nica gave me. Who would've thought it would be my last? They're not selling Cadbury Pinkies anymore, but that one really tasted so heavenly. The marshmallow, the caramel.. aaah. Or my birthday this year. Technically, I got a box. But a box full of special things that mattered to me: songs, storybooks (about Princess Aurora of course!), letters, LOVE from people who care. And of course One Tree Hill. Hehe. These are just few of the fireworks I had this year. To a regular person, these are probably just a bunch of crap. But to me, they're special, because they made me smile, they made me look forward to the days to come. And though they didn't actually make big changes in life, I will always remember them. Because they managed to light up my "sky," even for a little while.

Do I have a New year's Resolution? I really don't make one because I end up getting frustrated when I can't do it. But this year, I decided to have one, just so I would be inspired to do good things. haha. I want to be Haley. (Here I go again with the OTH talk! I can't seem to stop!) I want to be happy in simple ways. I want to be the bestest friend I'll ever be to my friends. I want to share my time and knowledge to those who need it. I want life to be simple. I want to be in love (calling Nathan Scott!). I just want to be someone that is not too far away from who I am right now. Just a better, upgraded version of me. haha, is that what it's supposed to be called? Whatever. Wish me luck on my so-called resolution. Good luck on yours too!

Got this from Patty.
What this is:
List seven songs that you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, they must be songs that you're really enjoying right now. Post these intructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they are listening to.
The Seven Songs
1. Dare You To Move by Switchfoot
2. More Than Anyone by Gavin De Graw
3. Crash Into You by Dave Matthews band
4. Prinsesa by Teeth
5. I Don't Wanna Be by Gavin De Graw
6. Stars by Switchfoot
7. Far Away by Nickelback
The Seven People: Cars, Rina, Janine, Lala, Gliza, CJ and Ate Janina.

Long post? Sorry. Last naman na for this year. I'm so excited to jump! Haha. I need to grow taller. How else can I kiss James Lafferty if he's so tall? Oh well, height doesn't matter anyway. :p

Love to all. Happy New Year!
Awooooooooooo! Arf, arf! =]











"I wanted you to stay, ‘Cause I needed, I need to hear you say that I love you, I have loved you all along.. And I forgive you for being away for far too long.. So keep breathing, 'cause I’m not leaving.. Hold on to me.." -- Far Away by Nickelback

still in love.

I'm back and Tree Hill-ed. Haha. So far I've finished Season One and it was goooood. We went to Festival yesterday. I bought celebrity magazines at Book Sale, hoping and wishing that one of them would have James Lafferty in it. The first two were full of Chad posters. No offense to his fans, but it's pretty tiring to always see his face. When I picked up the third mag, to my surprise there are OTH Behind the Scenes and a James Lafferty poster!!! Wow. I was so thrilled! And it even had his address in it. Well not his residential address, but the one wherein you get to send your fan mail (in my case, love letters), haha. Cool. Man, he's hot. Hotter than Christian Bale (aka Bruce Wayne). I suddenly remembered that my mom showed me a picture of Dustin Hoffman, when he was in his 20s I think, and it had a dedication which said, "To Ana Marie, Love Dustin Hoffman." Amazing, right? My mom also had celebrity crushes before and when she asked for their pictures (of course with the help of the addresses in the magazines.. she really is my mom :p), they actually send one! Which brings my hopes up that maybe, just maybe, James Lafferty will take the time to read my letter and send me his autograph, though I wish he could send himself instead. I mean, probably most of his letters come from girls in the US and I come from the Philippines so that would hopefully increase my chances, right? He might get interested and try to find me and fly here to Manila and when he finds out I'm only in high school he still marries me because anyway, he married Haley when they were Juniors. Haha. I really have to stop now.

In a few days, I'd be wearing that uniform again, walking in the same halls and spending my weeks in the place called school. I can't believe that after only three months and 2 major tests, it'll be summer and after that I'd be in third year. Wow. Ten years in St. Paul already? But I can still remember the day in Kinder I, when I met my best-friend-slash-best-enemy Hope. Who would've thought we'd still be close now? And the years I've spent with Trixie, Nica, Mikka, Cathe, LA, Missy, Anile, Inna, Keng, Alyssa.. has it really been that long? I cannot believe it. And look, only a few more years and we'd be saying goodbye to the place that nurtured and took care of us. Okay, I'm being all dramatic again. Sure I hate "tipol" when we are loaded with projects and nasty teachers. But this is the place we all LOVE to hate. Soon it will only be a memory. No more First Friday masses or chimes. I'm excited with college but I'll be carrying St. Paul with me forever. Until that day though, I will resent going to school! Haha. Kidding. Tamad pa ko pumasok eh.

Recently, I'm into wearing eyeliner. I don't know what got into me the day I bought my first eyeliner. Part of teenhood, I suppose? Naah. I'm guessing it's just vanity. So now I look like a punk/goth/rocker chick. Haha. But I must admit, I look hot. HAHA. My grandma said I looked cool. Now I'm thinking if she said that because I'm her granddaughter or it's true. Hmm. Hope it's the latter.

Got to go make my "fanmail." One Tree Hill, here I come!! :)
Love to all Nathan Scott! =]










"i'm gonna love you more than anyone.."

tutor girl.

Belated Merry Christmas and Advanced Happy New Year! :) I'm staying at my lola's house in Batangas this week so here I am in the nearby mall blogging. How can I NOT blog? Anyway, Christmas went really well as I got ALL the things in my wishlist! Yeeeees! One Tree Hill dvds for Season 1 AND 2 (talk about fantastic!), the next three books in the Gossip Girl series and yes, princess stuff. Plus something I really didn't expect. Havaianas!! Woohoo.

I met this guy one Tuesday, a few months back. He's hot, handsome, everybody wants him. I know his name and all but I really didn't care much about him until that Tuesday. It was love at first sight. That Saturday I saw him again and his smile.. oh God, how can you not fall in love with that smile? We agreed to meet the next Tuesday. He didn't fail me because on the following Tuesday I did see him again and he showed me how sweet he really is. After an hour, I was sure that I'm in love. Anyway, I didn't see him after that for a while but then I saw pictures of him! Lots and lots of pictures of him in yup, you guessed it, in the Internet. I started getting them like crazy. I love him and I even placed his picture secretly in my ID. I always made a way to see him every Tuesday. It was like a secret deal, that I HAD to see him. He's so gorgeous. I could marry him right then and there. And now, a few days after Christmas, I'm missing him and I can't get him off my head. Now I'm pretty sure you're all guessing who this lucky guy is. Haha. Anyway, I'll tell you but don't laugh okay?

Nathan Scott. OH MY GOD HE IS THE BOMB. I'm falling for him harder after every episode. He is waaaay hotter than Bruce Wayne or Cedric Diggory. I never had a celebrity crush like this before! I dream of him, I think of him, I love him! Sure I liked Champ or Drew Arellano, but you know I sort of forget about them. I don't get excited when I see them or I don't think of them when they're not there. But Nathan (aka James Lafferty)? I cannot even count how many times I closed my eyes and just wished that somehow, I could be Haley and we'll end up happily ever after. I love you, Nathan Scott!!!!!!!!

Speaking of Haley, I suddenly realized why of all the girls, I liked her best. Because I actually see myself in her. Okay, I'm not saying this just because I like Nathan but when I stop to think about it, I am Haley. I am never going to be the popular and bitchy queen Brooke is nor the tormented artist like Peyton. But I do tutor my classmates sometimes, especially in Geometry. :) Yeah, I know some of you might be protesting right now, but when I think about it, Haley is the closest I'll ever be to being Lil Miss Nice. I guess the only thing I need to 'practice' on to be more like Haley is when I try to always see the good in people. To not always judge people based on what others see or the first impression. And to actually make a difference. Like what she did to Nathan. Oh and of course, I need a Nathan to be a Haley. :D Haha. I'll be realistic, I'll never come close to being all the other celebrities I picture myself to be like Holly Golightly or Rachel Green. But I think I can be Haley James-Scott if I want to because after all, I am already a bit like her. Just a little more, Karla. :p

Okay all this One Tree Hill talk makes me sound like a geek. Well I have nothing better to do than watch it! And I'm loving every minute of it. Sigh. I sound really pathetic. Maybe I should stop thinking about Nathan and the rest of the Tree Hill people even just for a while? Hmm. *thinks about other things*

I can't. Nathan is too handsome to be forgotten. :p

Love to all. Hope you're enjoying your vacation. Mwaaaaaaah!










"So why can't forever start today?" -- Nathan

merry christmas!! :)

In only a few more hours, Santa will be riding his sleigh with his oh-so lovable reindeers, children worldwide will be waiting for their presents, moms and dads will be busy filling up socks and somewhere out there in a town called Paranaque, a little girl named Karla will be crossing her fingers that hopefully she is on Santa's List of Nice Kids and she'll be getting her One Tree Hill DVDs. Haha.


Wow I can't believe it's Christmas eve already. Time flies by soo fast. Sheesh. Talk about cliche. And I must admit, I really am excited. Just thinking about the food, the gifts and the smell of new crispy paper bills makes my heart go thump-thump! I have been thinking about these for weeks. They make me look forward to Christmas even more. The other night I was watching etc when I saw this commercial of a young boy, about five years old with a lymphatic disease. I wasn't sure what it was called but it looked serious. And yet the little boy was smiling in the picture as if not minding his very serioud illness. It made me cry big time. "This boy managed to smile and be happy despite his sickness," I thought. "And me? I get blackheads and I couldn't even smile for the camera." No, no, no, beauty is not my point. What I'm trying to say is that I, who have so much more, always complain and ask and complain and ask for things I don't really need. But that boy, who needs an operation and huge amounts of medication doesn't even say a word of irritation or anger. Instead, he smiles, a kind and sincere smile. A smile that can warm a thousand hearts like mine. How I wish I could help that boy if only I wasn't too busy crying that I didn't get to catch the number to call. Tsk, tsk. Anyway, after that dramatic moment I tuned back to the other show I was watching and fell asleep. But somehow, that boy stayed on my mind.

Sometimes, I get caught up with all the shopping, wrapping, buying and wishing (for gifts.. haha) that I forget what I am really preparing for. All this waiting and making a countdown actually stops me from thinking about who is coming. And that's Jesus. It is not wrong to give presents to people we love or to prepare food on our table but I'm glad that it wasn't too late when I realized that we don't do this to impress but to share the love that will come into the world through Jesus. It is a celebration of the coming of our Savior. I failed to see what Christmas truly is these past few weeks, what with all the giant boxes and large number of presents piling up under the tree. But I am thankful that somewhere out there, a little boy made me realize how lucky I am that I am loved, and that with this love I have, I can share it to others who need it more. I may not be able to deposit large amounts of money or give expensive gifts but I sure know what I'm going to give the less-fortunate this Christmas.. but I just ran into a problem. How do you gift wrap a prayer? :)

Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy your holiday! God bless to you and your family.











"Hark the herald angels sing, glory to the newborn king!"

OTH syndrome.

Oh geez. I can't stop myself. I am officially addicted to One Tree Hill. I've been surfing Naley sites for hours, downloading icons like crazy, and oh just thinking about it makes me wanna go out the streets and scream, "I love you Nathaaaaaaaan!" But just before I go bonkers, I'd like to blog first, just in case I get caught up in my addiction later on.

I don't know why but somehow, OTH always makes a way to creep through my veins and make me excited. When I see pictures of them or read quotes about them, I don't know, I just go berserk. Next thing you know, I'll be marrying Nathan Scott and actually believe I'm Haley. Or I'll actually wake up and be best friends with Brooke or something. Whatever it is that's with One Tree Hill, it has surely gotten me. I LOOOOVE OTH! I better stop or I'll die out of too much adrenaline rush.

Two more days till Christmas. Wow. Talk about fast. I'm sick: cough and colds. Boo. Now I'm stuck at home, bonding with our PC instead of partying and shaking my booty. Fantastic isn't it? I wonder what gifts I'll be receiving this time? I do hope they're not default gifts like (oh the horror!) picture frames or *gasp* angel figurines. Please. I've had enough of those in the past 13 Christmases I've had. Yeah I know it's the thought that counts, pero I can't help but wonder if they really thought of me while buying that gift or they just had no choice. Wala ng maisip, eto na lang. Whatever. At least may gift. But still. Except for the picture frame Mikka gave me, (it was shaped like a crown and had the word Princess on it! :p) no more default gifts! Please.

:) TOP 3 ON MY WISHLIST.
1. One Tree Hill DVDs -- Waaaaaaah! I need this. Badly.
2. Gossip Girl second set -- oh geez I want this.
3. princess stuff -- yeah, anything princess and Aurora will do.
* I'm really not that hard to please, am I? :)

So that's just about it for now. My husband Nathan is calling for me. Yeah, right. Oh gahd, somebody snap me out of this insanity. Love to all.

Merry Christmas! :)









"I dare you to move, like today never happened, today never happened before.."

here comes the bride..

Yesterday was a blast. I can't believe that the wedding was over. I'm so happy for them. Congrats again, Mr. and Mrs. Marvin Casimiro! Trixie, Nica and I went to the wedding courtesy of Nica's dad. We arrived quite early, around 2:00 because in the invitation it said 3:00. But of course, Filipino time, that's why it started at around 4:00. The chapel was nice. It was very peaceful. It looked like a giant kubo, there were trees everywhere and the seats were shaped like cut logs. It was so beautiful. The number of guests were quite few but it was picture perfect. We took pics using my phone so as not to kill ourselves out of boredom. When it was finally time for the bride to walk down the aisle, I could tell Miss Villapando (she's still a "miss" that time.. hehe) wanted to cry. She was so pretty. I wanted to cry too because I really am so happy that they ended up together. Sir Casimiro is lucky to have her. Anyway, the ceremony was short yet I felt magic in the air. Actually, we were laughing since the priest (let's not mention names, okay?) was singing and his voice was croaking and well, I just don't want to name who or what else made us laugh because they might come across this blog and kill me. Basta, we were quite noisy but we managed to hold back our laughs for a bit. :) In the end, we joined the picture taking along with some teachers and after that.. eating time!

The reception place was just beside the chapel, in Nature's Cafe. It was still a kubo, but it was nice. There were flowers and candles along the walkway, and to tell you honestly the food was good. When it was time to throw the bouquet, we (people from St. Paul) were all rooting for Ms. Toledo, our adviser because.. well later. The first throw was bitin so Mrs Casimiro (they're married na!) threw it again and this time Ms. Toledo just caught it with ease. Parang she was meant to get that. Then when it was time for the groom to throw the garter and guess who we were rooting for? Sir Santos! Yihee.. siyempre Sir Casimiro "purposely" threw the garter towards Sir Santos' direction and there! Perfect match! Why Ms. Toledo and Sir Santos? Well let's just say there's something fishy.. haha. Chismis. We left quite early nga, because we felt out of place already and we had to go back to Nica's house where we will be fetched. Aion.

Weddings always make me feel good. I don't know. Maybe because of its comforting and scary thought of having someone there for you not just for a couple of days or months but forever. It's also probably because I'm always fascinated by the fact that these two people met, fell in love and everything just fell into the right places. Despite all the hatred and wrath in the world, it's wonderful to know that you'll have someone to share all the happiness with you, to make your life colorful. It's magical, isn't it? I don't want to think of my wedding right this moment, though.. all I know is that it's going to be just like a fairy tale. I'm the princess bride. ;)

Wanna see all the pics?
Go here.

Wow, only a few more days till Christmas. Thanks to all who commented and tagged. Much love to you guys.

♥ Happy Holidays! :)











"in a world where everybody hates a happy ending story it's a wonder love can make the world go round.."

as long as i have you, i have everything.

New layout. My favorite, so far. Featuring of course the on-screen couple Nathan and Haley Scott of One Tree Hill (played by James Lafferty and Bethany Joy Lenz). Oh shux, kinikilig ako parati everytime I see them together! They're so sweet and perfect for each other. It's just that they make me believe in love. They make me FEEL in love. Just the thought of having one person there for you, who will do whatever it takes just to win your love, makes my heart melt. So there, the romantic side of me shows through. I'm so loving this layout. I got the image from daretomove and I coded the layout myself. I swear I never miss an opportunity to pass by this site everytime I surf the net and I always end up downloading icons, wallpapers.. ack. I really am addicted.

Went to mom's ofice today for their Christmas party. I just surfed the Internet there too. Everyone kept saying how pretty I have been (nux..) and how tall I am and how dalaga I am.. blah, blah. I was flattered of course but it made me think if what they were saying was true, a bola or they were just saying that because it's a must to say something like that to teens like me. Haha. Oh well, I choose to believe it's true. *wink*

Tomorrow is Sir Casimiro and Miss Villapando's wedding. I'm so excited for them. They are the best couple in school. Haha. They (especially Sir C) has always been there for me to advice me and guide me in school, more of like an older brother to me. Though it's been two years since I had him for a teacher, he never failed to remind me to focus on my studies and all. We grew really close specially when I stepped in high school because I'd always 'update' him with what's happening to me and everyone else. I'm sort of like his little sister already. I was supposed to be an abay but thanks to Sister *toot* who did not allow students to be part of the entourage, I was merely a guest. But I was still honored because I was the first ever to receive an invitation. :) Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Casimiro! Love to you guys. ♥

Got to go eat. Mwaaaah.










"sweet like candy to my soul, sweet you rock and sweet you roll.."

very, very happy feet.

[start]
This is a post of a pair of feet who got what they want when they least expected it.

Feet are meant to move a person from one place to another, to travel and discover new places. It is the body's means of transportation. Feet leave behind footsteps that makes people remember, feet are paired with shoes that makes them shine and feet have to be pampered. But this is not the case if you are owned by a 14-year-old high school student. You are stuck in white socks and dull black shoes for five days a week (sometimes 6), eight to ten hours a day. It's hot and though it is comfortable, we long for air and well, style. We have to admit though, our owner has a fetish for shoes. She loves shoes and she always make it a point to dress us up nicely (and we are thankful)but to the point where we get blisters or wounds just for the sake of beauty. It's a hard life. We don't even get foot spas or massages or whatever kind of pampering. Some say we are our owner's asset (aside from her hands and smile and skin :p) but it is hard keeping up with that teenaged brat. What we need is something that can make us feel comfortable, relaxed and fashionable as well, even for long hours of shopping or walking around.

Then comes Happy Feet, an old brand of bakya who made its comeback from the 70's. Our owner's titas even claimed owning one during their high school days (her mom didn't because she was flatfooted). Knowing our owner, she LONGED for a pair when she set her eyes on it because it was IN and we figured she knew that it was therapeutic as well. Relatives and even Karla herself promised to save for that "glorious pair." But it has been months since that day and our hopes were almost crashing because we knew that day would never come -- almost.

After a usual shopping spree, we were surprised when Karla's dad gave her mom money to buy her a pair of Happy Feet!! Wow. It was so amazing. It made us feel like stars. At first there were no sizes for the right colors, no designs for the right sizes.. it was a tough fight. But I guess Karla's strong urge to have a pair kept her fitting and fitting and fitting.. until she found the one As we tried it on, we felt as if heaven opened up and sang Alleluia with us. It was a great sigh of relief. Happy Feet is much cheaper than the other pairs she's been eyeing on yet for us, it is a much better choice. As we walked away from landmark, we felt as if we were gliding on air. It felt so great. It was a piece of heaven. And we had to admit, it was damn hot. We are superstars.

So yes, the long wait is finally over but the saying "You only want me when you can't have me," doesn't go for us because we want Happy Feet more and more every minute.

Happy and contented Feet: That's us with our new buddies.

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So there. That was my day. I'm still wearing them now even though I'm only typing nonsense on our PC. I'm really happy today so nothing can stop me! :) Still got a lot going this week since tomorrow is our Christmas party, on Tuesday is Mom's Christmas Party at her office and on Wednesday is Sir C and Miss V's wedding. I'm soo excited for them! :)

Love to all the happy feet in the world. =]

"Coz you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you.."

beautiful as a dream.

Periodic Exams are finally over! Woohoo! Goodbye long nights of studying and hello long nights of blogging! Yipee. This is what I always love.. the hours and days after the exam. You feel so stress-free. Haha. This also means that the Christmas break has officially started. Well, not yet since we still have our Christmas party on Monday but what the heck, we're FREE!! :) I can feel the Christmas spirit in the air.

I've done some shopping today. I wasn't able to buy lots of things but I'm glad to say that I enjoyed LOOKING for things I wish I could buy. Haha. No, seriously I bought special gifts for special people. There, that's it. You know what, I've been really stressing on what gifts to buy for my acquaintances. I'm actually caught in a dilemma. It's too expensive if I buy them all but it would be mean if I don't. What if I just print them out a card or something? Would that be okay? Ack.

Beautiful as a dream. That's what I am. Joke! :p I saw this shirt at SM today with Aurora's picture and this quote. Of course I so wanted to buy it but: 1) It was too expensive and 2) I have no size (it's for kids). But nevertheless it stuck with me throughout the afternoon and I've come to realize how lucky I really am this year. Though I may not be a top student or a perfect little girl I can still say that this year was quite beautiful and full of blessings. I discovered my inner princess and realized how beautiful I really am. Though I have imperfections and shortcomings, I've come to know who loves me for who I am, the whole packaged deal. And so many other great things have happened to me. I cannot believe that 2005 passed by so quickly. Everything used to be a blur, but now things are finally becoming clearer. Life really is a fairy tale. All I have to do is wait for my happy ending.

Few more months to go, and hello Junior-hood! Haha. I can't believe I'm in high school for almost two years na! Experienced? Naaah. Enjoy the weekend.









P.S. Jal, sobrang enjoy ako. Thanks a lot. Mwaaaaaaaaaah. :)
"But it was you I wanted all along.." -- Nate from Gossip Girl

i'm in school!! hooray.

Can you believe that I'm blogging in school?! Haha. No, I'm not illegal. We're in the CAI Lab for our CL class and obviously I wouldn't miss the opportunity to blog. This is a first, man. Woohoo. We're supposed to be answering for questions but what the heck I could do that later. haha. So anyway, how am I? Geez, this is such an awkward moment, I have never surfed the Internet in school (basically because I didn't know we had Internet.. hehe). Thank God for CL. Nyeh. Pero di nga. Now if only we'll be doing this more often.. that would be awesome!!

Today started out really BAD. First, when I was about to reach school (I was walking) this car out of nowhere passed in front of me and splashed the water from the puddles in my shoes!! It was too late to go back to our house! Good thing my tissue was to the rescue and I have nothing to do but wipe it away. Ick. Then I found out that I lost my Chemistry assignment. Darn. And I was so proud of it because my dad knew all the kilowatts and I finished it quickly yesterday. But no, I think I forgot it at home and now I am homework-less. Bummer. I though this day was gonna end up pretty bad, but of course CL saved me. Thank you, thank you Miss! You may not be my favorite but you really made me happy today. Really. :)

Periodic Exams this week. Shucks. I'm soo not ready. I mean, yeah I started reviewing already but it's just so hard to put myself in "study mode" when all my systems are shouting "Christmas!!" But of course, I don't want to slack off or I might not be able to reap 'good fruits.' Anyway, stress is taking over me now but I vow myself not to let it get to me. Not to stop me from doing what I must do: study. For I am a student. Just a mere student. (Yuck drama).

As much as I would want to blog about my WHOLE day, I can't because of course I am a good student (ha!) and I must research or else I'll fail the seatwork. but nevertheless, I'm still really really really really glad that God made a way to make me smile today. See how God always gives happy endings? :)

Gotta go. My paper is waiting for me. Love to all.









"When I look at the stars, I feel like myself.."

thou shall not steal.

It's one of the commandments. And a good Catholic SHOULD follow it.

People always say I'm too jealous, too possessive. I grew up an only child, with no one to share my things so this is pretty much natural. I'm not selfish.. I just want to make sure what's mine is mine alone. There are just some things you cannot share and doesn't it make you MAD when someone attempts to steal them from you?

Exhibit A.
You make your own aliases and screen names. You use them as your signature, your Yahoo ID and as your codename. Everybody knows it's yours. But wow, all of a sudden you see someone else use it on Friendster. Well, hello, now everybody knows her for YOUR username. How nice.

Exhibit B.
You make something on your own, with your own time, creativity and effort. You learned everything from scratch and surprise! You see it being used by someone else and takes credit for it. Hello, hello again. You want to snap at her but you can't.

Exhibit C.
You want to forget that this someone is stealing something from you. You want to forgive her. You just want to put it all behind you and pray that she will not do it. You try your best to control yourself when you see her, you try to erase all evil thoughts, you force yourself to shut up when the very sound of her name comes up. But when she's there, in flesh and you see her attempting to steal your thing, you just want to explode right then and there.

I can't crack in school so I'll just do it here. How could they?! How could they sleep at night when they know they actually stole SOMETHING from someone?! How could they look at this person straight in the eye when they know that they did something wrong? HOW?! How do they manage to walk with chin up high and say "Hey! I'm an original!" when in fact they aren't? You know what, I'm actually being good here because I do not attack them in person. I actually try to forget them. But when I think about it, I just can't help but feel so irritated and betrayed. The first two are actually, well forgiven (sort of). But the last one.. oh God. I do not know when or how I am going to put her in the forgiven list but I know for sure it's not going to be anytime soon. It is so freakin' hard to love the people who hurt you. You try to compromise and forgive.. but they don't do anything about it. Are they numb or something? Aren't they even aware of their surroundings?!

I better stop. This is probably enough to make me feel okay for a little while.

By the way, I had fun at the Youth Camp yesterday even though it was corny. I made new friends! Yaaay! Hope they don't become enemies. :)

I'm currently loving Bio, specifically our topic these days, Genetics. That's why I have to study for it. Hehe. Gotta run.

Love to all those who don't steal. And to those who feel what I'm feeling now.












"dahil ako'y nasasabik sa muli mong pagdampis sa aking labi.."

haffie beeday.

Happy Birthday Nica!

I'm here blogging at Nica's house, which by the way looks like the Big Brother House. Haha. I've been here for almost half-a-day and in a few minutes I'll be going home. But I had a blast really. Nica's nephew even wanted me to ber her girlfriend. Aww. How cute.


Reminded me of my birthday. haha. I want gifts already! I want the whole Gossip Girl book set. Hey Santa! can you hear me?


Blog later. Love to all.










"so happy together.."

once upon a time..

There was a princess named Karla..

I've always wanted to be a princess. Have I ever mentioned that before? I dream of castles, rainbows, prince charmings, pixie dust.. fantasies. I always have this vision that someday I'll be like Sleeping Beauty. My philosophy in life is, "To live my happily ever after." I wish my life is a fairy tale book, full of magic and surprises.

But I guess only the imagined princesses get to live that kind of life.

This past few months have been a tornado. I've experienced emotional ups-and-downs even after only five months or so. I have almost-proven that sophomore life is no fairy tale and the only thing similar to real-life and fantasy-life are the villains. Misunderstandings, fights, intrigues, insults.. oh what pleasure! If only there came a "How To Act Like A Disney Princess In Real Life" book along with the film, well I would have been one of the first people to grab them. It's as if those colorful and wonderful moments would never happen to me. It's just too impossible. Really just imagination. And it's sad isn't?

What's the use of having that kind of philosophy when it's never going to happen?

Then I thought and thought and thought. No one ever said that it's a 0% possibility of happening. I am the main character in my book, but at the same time I'm the author as well. I will do what I want. I will say what I say. I will be what I have to be. Besides, what makes one a princess isn't really the castle or the really nice dresses, it's what's in the heart. ♥ Love. Care. Compassion. And no, I don't have fairy godmothers, dancing teacups, dwarfs or talking sea creatures to help me around but I do have family, friends and God. They can protect me from the (unfortunately) real villains in life. When I think about it, my life is actually better than the princesses in fairy tales. What I need is just right before my very eyes, I'm just too blind to see it.

Yes, I still believe in princesses..
but now I really and firmly believe that I AM in fact a true princess, at heart.
And really, I'm way prettier than Sleeping Beauty. Heehee. :)

And so I SHALL live happily ever after..














happy birthday, nix! :)
"I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream.."

bounce, bounce.

wow, i never knew quite a number of people read my previous post! haha. ohwell, I was being a drama queen.

Waddup with moi? I think I'm getting tired with the layout. I dunno. I love Miss Piggy, but I just think this one's crap. I miss Bittersweet.

Anyway enough about that. I've been accepted as an official cheerleader for the Pink team! ♥ Yipee! Just hearing the word "official" makes me all important. I'm doing it with Jen and Nikki. Whoopee! I'm so excited. The Intrams season IS really here. And I'm welcoming it with open arms.

Not much time to post today, takas lang. Just finished doing HW in Socsci.

ay singit lang, may joke ako from Hope:
Q: Anong hayop ang mahilig sa brief?
A: Edi bird!
Haha. Ick. Laughtrip.

Advanced happy birthday to Nica on the 3rd!! :) Whee.
And also to all the other December celebrants out there. :p

Gotta run. Love lots. xoxoxo.









"sweet like candy to my soul, sweet you rock and sweet you roll.."

compliment overload.

I never thought such a thing exists until it happened to me.

Most people love receiving compliments, and I would be a hypocrite if I say I don't. Seriously, when I receive compliments such as "You're pretty," or "Ganda mo talaga," or "I think you're really nice," or something like that, it makes my face red and my ear heat up. I'm flattered. And it makes me smile.

But too much of something is not good.

Everyone keeps on complimenting me on my new bangs and straight hair. And I will be honest, I had it rebonded. I was so jealous of my mom who had her hair rebonded some months back so i decided to get mine done too. And now, it's softer, smoother, easier to manage.. you get the point. I mean, yeah I do look better and I feel great about it. I like it. I like receiving compliments because of it. But what if the conversation goes like this?

Situation 1: A friend walks up to you with a smile on her face.
Person: Ganda ng hair naten ha? Pina-rebond mo?
Me: Hinde, shinampoo ko lang yan.
Person: Di nga?
Me: Hinde, ni-rebond nga.
Person: (smile suddenly disappears) Ay, sayang ang ganda pa naman ng buhok mo dati. Hindi kaya masira yan after a few months? Parang kay *tooot*?

Situation 2: You're talking to a friend during recess.
Me: Sige na nga I'll tell you the truth. Nagpa-rebond ako.
Person: Ha? Nagpa-rebond ka?
Me: (nods)
Person: (with a big smirk on her face, parang I killed someone) Bakit?!?!


Well sorry if I wanted to look prettier. Sorry if I can't stand the fly-aways anymore. Sorry if I think I look better with straight hair than my usual sometimes-wavy-sometimes-undefinable hair. YES I HAD MY HAIR REBONDED. Does that make me less of a person? Just this morning my dad kept saying how smooth and silky and black my hair is, in a very very very sarcastic tone. What's up with that? So I spend a few thousand bucks on my hair. I saved for it. Yes, I actually did. And it makes me feel better that I spent my money on something that would make me feel good. Is that wrong? I mean, what's wrong with a little pampering? I know most of you will say, "Yuck, fake pala hair ni Karla." Well let me tell you what's fake. At least I did it because I liked it, not because everyone else is doing it. If I did it to become popular, well why have it rebonded? It's so last season. the waves are in now. But I still pushed through with it because I know I look good with straight hair. And FYI, I promised myself to save up for the treatments every 3 months or so to actually maintain it, and not let it be like *toooot*'s hair.

Haaay. There I've done it. So if you ever plan on complimenting me sarcastically, well don't. Because I could just explode right in front of you. Compliments are supposed to be NICE, not an insult in disguise.

The vaccine pushed through. Ack. My left bicep is aching like someone punched me. And my flour-filled balloon popped. :( Boo hoo.

Love to all who loved my hair. :)








"And I really really really care
And I really really really want you
And I think I'm kinda scared
'Cause I don't want to lose you.."

what a parallelogram taught me.

Properties of A Parallelogram
1. Consecutive angles are supplementary.
2. Opposite angles are equal.
3. Diagonals bisect each other.
4. Opposite sides are parallel.
5. Opposite sides are equal.


Once again Geometry has taken over me. I was reviewing my notes, trying to memorize these properties when something just popped out of my head. I found an easier and well, alternative way of making them stay in my head. Comparing them to a bigger and more realistic geometry notebook: life.

Consecutive angles are supplementary.
We all supplement each other at times, emotionally, physically. There will always be people who will complete us, who will make us whole, a perfect 180. It doesn't have to be only one person. There are people who will always be there for us, to fill in our weaknesses, to give us strentgths, to make us realize how incomplete everything will be without us. We tend to overlook these "supplements", thinking that they are somewhere else in the world, probably the biggest superstar or the unreachable heartthrob not knowing that the very person who will make us whole just might be the person sitting right next to us.

Opposite angles are equal.
People have different opinions on things. Different views, perceptions, ideas. And sometimes, these beliefs are so strong that we tend to judge other people who do not think like us. We call them stupid or idiots. We think that we are more superior simply because our opinion is either more popular or more believable. But people see things differently, from all angles. I sometimes (SOMETIMES, ok? I'm not that harsh) tend to make others feel inferior simply because they don't agree with what I say. And, when I think about it, it sucks. We are all equal, whatever our choices are. So yes, I agree to disagree and it's good.

Diagonals bisect each other.
I guess there will always come a time in our lives when we cross paths with someone that will forever become our best friend. Someone that will finish our sentences, someone that will understand how we feel just by looking at us, someone you share your secrets to, someone you tease with, someone who you can consider your long-lost sister. One minute you can be exactly the same, and so different the next. Your friendship doesn't only form "congruent segments" but also vertical angles. Opinions that may be different but nevertheless still makes you stick together like glue. Everybody, showyour besty some love!

Opposite sides are parallel and Opposite sides are equal.
I guess this is the hardest and the most difficult yet. No matter how hard it is to accept this fact, I just have to. We may be opposites but we are still equal. Yes. I am equal to my enemy. I am parallel to my enemy. I stand on the same ground as hers. She backstabbed me, but I also backstabbed her. She hated me, and I hated her as well. I may not forget what she did to me, but I have to accept the fact that she is still there, living and breathing, just opposite me and we are actually equal. Congruent. Hurts, but true.

How's that for a review?! Good luck na lang kung may quiz.
Got to go get my vaccine. Yikes.
BTW, I'm one month old today!
Love to all, except to those who don't want to be loved.
Hihi.






"you're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be.."

ever after.

I tried out for cheerleading today. Ooh, man I hope I get in! I mean, I really like being a cheerleader. I'm born for it! Haha. No, but seriously, I love these kind of stuff. When you cheer for your team, lead the pep squad, think of actions, and actually have lots of fun while doing it.. it makes my adrenaline rush. This is really it, I can feel the Intrams spirit in the air. Haay. And it makes me all excited.

I'm liking Biology these days. We're tackling genetics, and surprisingly I'm hooked. It's actually fun doing the Punnett square and identifying phenotypes, genotypes and probabilities. And I actually UNDERSTAND it. But still, nothing beats Geometry. I still like math better than science. (Oh geez, I am such a geek!)

Okay, sorry for that nerdy part. Anyway, today I can say I am in bliss. Yes, I am very happy indeed. So far everything's been going well. Grades are good, social life is okay, it's as if everything is in their right places again. The order has been disturbed but thankfully, it has been restored. And nothing beats a happy ending. Maybe that's why I hold on to fairy tales that much. Because a part of me believes and knows that happily-ever-afters do happen. Of course, not really "ever after" but you get what I mean. I think these make me sane. Insanity keeps me sane. Haha, ironic. I mean, most people my age would probably never even look at princesses or fairies anymore, but me I just love the thought of pixie dust, magic, cheerful stories, sentiments that leave a smile on my face. But note, I'm not childish.. I prefer child-like.

Haaay. I suddenly ran out of things to say! Oh well. I'll blog on more sensible things this weekend. Love to those who tagged.








"i believe in ever after with you.."

loving miss piggy.

Yaay! New layout! Miss Piggy really rocks. I wish I could be more like Miss Piggy. She knows she's a star and she knows how to flaunt it. She believes that she's a diva that's why she sparkles. I wish I had THAT confidence. I mean, we do like to shine sometimes, right? In our own way, we want to stand out from the rest of the crowd. Stand out as ourselves and not as someone else. Miss Piggy is a goddess personified. And look, she got Kermit head-over-heels in love with her! Hah. Rude Awakening: Believe you're a goddess and everyone will see it.


I already watched Harry potter 4 yesterday and to say it was good would be an understatement. It was fantastic! Reading the book AND watching the movie made it spectacular. Goblet of Fire is my favorite among all the HP books, and I must say the director and cast has done a really great job. Though not all the chapters were covered and some parts were bitin, I can still say that it was superb. Daniel Radcliffe was cute. But not as hot as Cedric Diggory! Total cutie!! Man, for a moment I wished I was Cho Chang. Too bad he had to die. Why?! Why take away the good-looking ones?! Haha. I can pretty much say that the trio (Dan, Rupert and Emma) have really grown up along with the characters. It's as if they're one with them already. Kudos to the people behind Goblet of Fire! I give you a 9.5/10! (Cedric died, eh!)

I can say that I'm still a kid, really. Why? First, I still believe in fairy tales and princesses. Second, I still watch kiddie shows. And third, I still can't resist looking and wishing for Bratz or MyScene or Barbie dolls. Everytime I see a Polly Pocket or a Disney Princess one, I wish that if I was good enough, Santa would still drop by my house and give it to me even if I'm too old. Just today, I saw the most adorable doll(s) I have ever seen: The Little Disney Princess AND Prince set! I can't believe it! Last year, I got the Little Princess (Sleeping Beauty), who by the way still sleeps with me, and the thought of seeing it with a Prince made my heart leap! It was too cute to be true. A doll prince. Sigh. Am I going out of my mind? Maybe I really am a 7-year-old trapped in a 14-year-old girl's body. Poor soul. If only people aren't too discriminating (surely you'd make fun of me) and money isn't too hard to get, I'd definitely buy that. Are you there, Santa? It's me, Karla. :)

About the "bring a picture of your enemy" thing, I decided to print a picture of Malificent. She may not BE my enemy, but she symbolizes people who make my life miserable. People who disguise themselves as nice persons but end up doing things to pull you down. Sucks, right? Good thing fairy tales have happy endings. I wonder who will kiss me in the end?!

Enough about daydreaming, I still have some homeworks to do. Hope you guys enjoyed your weekend. Thanks to those who commented and tagged. You know who you are.

Love to all. ♥







"Akin ka na lang, iingatan ko ang puso mo.. akin ka na lang, at wala ng hihigit pa sa 'yo"

can't think of a title. haha.

Swimming class today! Yipee! It started out a little rocky but it ended great! It was fun. The water was so cold and my hand was actually freezing and turning numb. My nails were almost gray and I was literally shivering (with matching gritting teeth and all). I've always loved swimming. It's like an escape to reality. If only I could just swim through my problems.. haay.

Our topic in CL is loving your enemies. Obviously it's very easy because tawagan namin ni Hope (my best friend) is Enemy. Haha. Our activity for Monday is to bring a picture or symbol of our enemies and we will hit them with darts! Yaay! That would be fun. But really, how do you love your enemy?! I was reading our book when I came across a statement that said, "Loving your enemy is not a feeling but a commitment." What the hell? I am not even committed to anyone, but I have to be committed to someone I actually hate! thinking about it, I wanted to scream out loud and tear the book up, but of course the little miss nice in me took over and I was able to control myself. It's hard you know, especially if you've actually stamped it on your mind and heart that you despise this person. And it really isn't easy. Especially for someone like me, who just can't forget things and let them go. I wonder how I'll get through this stage? Waaah.

Oh my godh, the frogs are at it again! My yaya is watching Extra Challenge and I can hear the contestants (Ruffa, Donita and Jasmine) shouting as they catch frogs or should I say, toads with BARE HANDS! I can so relate to them! Kadiri. Now it's giving me the creeps.

Makita Kang Muli is such a nice song. It really hit me when I heard it for the first time. I definitely agree that it's one of the best OPM songs ever. It's so straight-to-the-point. It's so sweet and romantic. And what would be nicer is if someone you really love actually sings it to you with matching guitar and all.. harana? Haaay. Nux, I'm off to dreamland again.

I miss Thailand.

BTW, I answered the Ask Karla already. Check it out in the NavBar.

Love to all.

The Intramurals Theorem.

GIVEN: Practices started, excited faces and non-stop driving down to memory lane.
PROVE: The magic of the Intramurals.


Meeting of the colors for Intrams has just started today and of course, I am once again raising the flag of the PINK team. (Woohoo! Hurrah!) This means feeling the team spirit, cheering, playing, having fun, the "non-vacation vacation" (new word!) from school. But this also means shortening of classes, squeezing of lessons and rushing of projects. In a Paulinian's life, this is the part of the school year when everything is a buzz, literally, emotionally, mentally and physically. The words busy, stressed, hectic and tired are usually heard as well as astig, fun and laugh trip. It is the period of sweat-slash-smiles, tears-slash-laughter and cries-slash-cheers. This is the time wherein all faces thicken (haha!) and all people come out of their shells. The most exciting part of the year has finally arrived, and it is greatly anticipated just as much as the HP Goblet of Fire. Welcome to the Intramurals/Field Day Season.


It is true that these are the most exhausting months of a student's year, but alas, it is also the most memorable and most exciting. One can go through high school forgetting about mini-tournaments or get-togethers but no one can ever forget this treasured "week of pure bliss." Concerts, fairs, games, booths, music, jamming, cheering, bonding, pictures, championships.. aaah. Just thinking about it makes my heart go, "Go Pink! Go Pink! P-I-N-K Pink!" Beautiful and happy memories from this time of year are always treasured and cherished. When one hears the word "Intrams", you can immediately see the spark on her eyes or the hidden smile on her lips. This is the magic and mystery of this season. But why? Why?


Geometry has definitely got me logically thinking even on this topic. I was sitting on my bed the other night when I suddenly thought of things that might PROVE this so-called "magic" of Intrams. (Haha, geom freak) First and foremost, there are no classes. Enough said. Second, it is the only time of the year wherein we can actually make noise and laugh our hearts out. We can shout in the corridors, sing in the campus, and wear colored clips. We can sit in the grounds and do whatever stuff you like to do, and your teachers will only look at you. Haha. Third, we get to mingle with other people. Though this might not be such a good reason for anti-socials, this is a very good opportunity to unleash our social butterflies. No one will ever care whether you are that class president, campus heartthrob or the sporty chick. All that matters is that you belong in one team and you must all work together to garner as many points as possible. Fourth, the concerts! My, my, how can we forget this? Two years ago: Kyla and True Faith, last year: Rivermaya and now: HALE! Oh my gosh! I know they're not as hot anymore but to me, they are still the number one OPM band in my heart (followed by Spongecola. Heehee.) And not only that, rumors are spreading that there would be TWO concerts this year!! Can you believe it? Fifth, the rides! Yipee! I find pleasure in the chubibo and the caterpillar. Haha. It makes me feel like a kid again. Add dirty ice cream and cotton candy, and we're all set: campus carnival! And sixth, it is just plain FUN. Everything is fun, everyone is happy. From the outside looking in, it might just be another sports week but to me, to Paulinians, it definitely means alot. You see, we're little girls trapped in a convent school who yearn for these kind of events. We look forward to opportunities to shine and show the world how talented we all are. We know how to have fun, we party and we rock! The intrams is one of the few events we just DON'T miss out. So yes, this "week" is not just something we spontaneously do or think of the last minute. It requires months of preparation, tireless practices and definitely memorable moments.


PROVEN: The Intramurals Theorem.













"Set to fly Pterosaura, conquer the heavens once again.."

i don't want to be.

I was not able to blog for such a long time, I feel like I forgot what I'm supposed to say already! Haha. Is that bad?

Bangkok really was a shopper's paradise. Everything, and I mean everything was there! From shoes, to bags, to skirts, to shirts to earrings.. you cannot leave Bangkok without purchasing more items than you expected. The hotel we stayed in was really good, we even had Franklin Drilon in the room in front of us. Wow, talk about cool. We met up with my Tita's Thai friends, Muukda and Surapon. They were really very nice and friendly. Thailand was a little bit similar to the Philippines, but it was a little advanced and people were actually very nice and sweet. I specifically enjoyed riding the tuk-tuk! It was so cool! And take this, every night of the trip, we visited the Suan-Lum Night Market, and every night we bought something new! We also went to the Grand Palace through the ferry boat and I swear I enjoyed the ride! The only glitch is, it was 33 degrees Celcius and boy I really got tired. Everyday was really a shopping day for us, what with all my titas and my lola and my mom.. you can certainly be sure of a shopaholic treat! Anyway, I was glad with everything I bought especially this Sleeping Beauty shirt at Central. It was soooo cool. But my best buys are the big Audrey Hepburn shades at MBK and the wrap-around skirt at Chatuchak. All in all, the trip was great and I'll definitely go back to Bangkok!! :)

These days I've been really addicted to One Tree Hill especially Nathan and Haley! Okay so I do not watch on ETC since we only had it a few months ago. I do watch on Star World and even though it's way back on the real airing, I still watch it because hey, I soo love it! I can feel like I can really relate to them. I actually like it better than the OC (no offense). And of course what makes me want to yearn for it is the Nathan and Haley team up. They look so good together! :p And James Lafferty is so HOT! Sizzling! I wish I was Haley. Hehe. Anyway, I'm looking forward to my Dad buying me the complete first season and of course, Wednesday nights on Star World. "I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately.."

The Long Test is finally over! Whew! I can't believe it's almost the end of the third quarter already. Time flies by so fast. Next thing we know, we're juniors already! It felt like only yesterday when I stepped into the new world of sophomore-hood, and soon I'll be saying goodbye to it. It also means having to choose my career and course already! Ack! *hyperventilates* I am so not ready yet. Nevertheless, I've still got about 5 months to enjoy theorems, chemical equations, significant figures and genetics galore. Haaay.

I'm so thankful to God for giving me another good fruit from my hard labor (here we go again with the fruits and labor thing!) this quarter. Second year has really been a tough year for me, but I'm glad I'm still able to balance everything. I admit I'm having problems in school, at home and sometimes with friends but I'm glad that despite all these I was able to manage and cope up with school. Thank you, Papa God!

Have you ever done something you have only seen in movies and never thought you could do in real life? Like you know, running after the one you love or something? Just a thought.

I think I'll be changing my layout soon. Love to all. *mwaah*

"Ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig.. maghintay ka lamang, ako'y darating.."

psst.

Hey guys I'm officially back! Our DSL is finally fixed. But unfortunately for me, I can't blog now since I have lots of stuff to do. I have to study for the Long Test, finish projects.. you get what I mean. So I'll just tell you all about Thailand later. By the way, it rocked!


Thanks again to all those who visited and greeted me. I'll get back to you guys as soon as I finish everything. Love to all.




I have to go, I'm late.. for reality. -- A Cinderella Story.

leaving on a jetplane.. :)

Finally! After one hundred years.. I am back. But not for good. I'm at an internet shop with a keyboard that sucks. Argh. Our DSL is still in a bad mood so my last-minute blogging has to settle at the internet shop.

I'm 14!! Yaaay! My birthday was a blast. I really thought nothing spectacular would happen, but fortunately for me, my friends did something really special. I came to school really feeling bad because one of my friends won't be able to go to school becayse of rashes. Of all the days, why the 26th?? To my surprise, they "hid" her pala and yun. The real blast startednin Engish, when Jobel said a prayer for me and everybody sang "Happy Birthday". I felt sooo happy. I even wanted to cry (tears of joy!). They gave me balloons, flowers (note: PINK flowers), crinkles (wheee!), ice cream, notebooks, pink stuff and a box with special trinkets in it. They even gave me a small rattle doll and a Sleeping Beauty storybook. Awww! People greeted me along the corridor, and everything about that day was almost-perfect. I then realized how lucky I really am. Like I said before, I really don't see myself as a goody-goody person with matching perfect smile and all. But lasy Wednesday, I almost felt like I am. My friends showed me how special I really am, and though I may not be perfect they love me, imperfections and all. Thank you to all those who greeted me, went out of their way for me and even those who just thought of me that day. Kisses to all of you!

I'm leaving for Thailand tomorrow. I'm sooo excited! It's the new shopping paradise! Whoo. My flight's at around ten I think. Wow. I think it's my lolo's and my late birthday gift. Heehee. I can't wait!! I'll be back by the 1st or the 2nd, I think. Bangkok, here I come!!

I finished reading my gift already. My lola gave me Gossip Girl 3 for my birthday and just yesterday, I finished it already!! Wahaah. I'm such a bookworm. But that's how it really is for me. When I really like a book, I'll not put it down until my eyes go puffy and my stomach grumbles. Hehe. The story was still kind of bitin, but I'm glad about the turnout of some events. Heehee. I'm so excited to buy the next one. What, with all the birthday moola I got, why not?

I'm listening to my new Spongecola CD. Good things happen to those who are last. You might be thinking, "What? She only got Sponge now?!" but I'm actually proud of my copy because it's got a second CD with the Gemini video and remastered versions of their other songs. Cool, right? Lesson of the Day: Wait. Haha.

So I guess that's it for now. This keyboard really gives me the pain in the.. fingers. Ack. By the way, belated Happy Bithrday to Janine, who's birthday was also on the 26th! And again, love to all those who greeted and visited. Take care everyone. Enjoy the sem break.

*mwaaah*

"i know i can never be enough to replace your whatever.."

- Neon by Spongecola

heaven-sent.

I truly am a good person. *ting*

I usually see myself as a not-so-good person. I deal with things like any average 13-(turning 14.. hehe)-year-old would do, sometimes in an irritated or hyperactive way. My mood flips 180 in less than 10 seconds and I tend to get vain. I admit that I am self-centered most of the time and I tend to think that the world revolves around me, sweet beautiful me.

I don't expect to be loved by all, and I don't expect to love all either. Love me, then you get love back. Hate me and you'll get all the hate you want. I expect to react to things my way, and I expect others to do my way as well. I get mad like a kid, too. I sneer at other people when I hate them, I raise my eyebrow and act like a little 7-year-old getting angry at her playmate. If I don't want you, then don't push it. That's that. Case closed. I'm such a brat.

But you know what surprises me? When I do things I never expect I could do. I mean, I'm not THAT selfish, but sometimes I just shock myself with all the crazy things I suddenly come up with. Like this one instance for example. There's this girl I really, really dislike in the first year (I mentioned her in my previous posts already). We're really not in good terms. We didn't fight or what, but I just don't like her attitude. She's not my friend and she's out of my circle. But the other day, she asked for a reco letter from me, and did you know what snotty old me said? "Sure." Not the plastic kind of yes but a real yes, as if we've been really good friends. That night I found it hard to right her a reco letter. And yes, I actually had a plan of acting all sweet in a 'plastic' way. But no, I actually made her a true and sincere letter, and I even said I want to become friends. Isn't this a miracle?! A girl I've always loved to hate.. wow.

And take this, I suddenly find attending the early mass every Friday fulfilling. I'm a lector during the 6:00 mass sponsored by the Paulinians at St. Andrew's every Friday. When I was in the first year, I find it really, really hard to wake up at 4:30. I think the only reason I did it was because I was afraid that God (and Sr. Fides) would punish me. But ever since the new school year began, I really wanted to attend every Friday. I want to do it for the Lord, not because I was afraid of Him but because I really do want to serve Him. I find it very satisfying to proclaim the Word of God, even though my audience are the lolos and lolas. And even though I'm not assigned as a reader, I still attend the mass. "Makikisimba lang po ako," That's what I said to my teacher when she asked why I was there last Friday when I wasn't chosen to read. And it's true. I didn't go to mass just so I could read but because I really want to go and ask for God's guidance. So whether I am a reader or not, I wake up at 4:30 every Friday just to serve the Lord. The other day, I never thought my teacher would tell my class and the other class about it and she even gave me as an example to the other students. I felt really happy. =] I love you, God!!!

I know we all have this pasaway attitude within us, this feeling that says it's fun to do things on our own, to don't care about other people and live life carelessly. But let me tell you, it feels better to do good things, really good things every once in a while. When you actually do things for others and not for yourself, it really gives you a feeling of contentment and pride. I pray that I could be more like this all the time. Less self-centered and actually be a help to others, not a pain.I feel really, really good. Just a while ago I bumped into my former "foe" and do you know what I did? I said hi. *wink*

Mind you, I'm not an angel.
That's too much.
I'm just living up the name I gave myself,
Little Miss Nice.









6 days to go.





"these are the moments , these are the times, let's make the best out of our lives.."

the karla survey.

1. I ___ KARLA.
2. KARLA is ___.
3. If I were alone in a room with KARLA, I would ___.
4. I think KARLA should ___.
5. KARLA needs ___.
6. I want to ___ KARLA.
7. Someday KARLA will be ___.
8. KARLA reminds me of ___.
9. Without KARLA, ___.
10. Memories of KARLA are ___.
11. KARLA can be ___.
12. Worst thing about KARLA is ___.
13. Best thing about KARLA is ___.
14. I am ___ KARLA.

Please answer my survey! Hehe. I got this from Gliza and Shari, and now it's my turn to ask you guys a favor. Please, please, please answer it for me. Okay, I know I'm not gonna get lots of respondents here, but what the heck. It's also in my Friendster. :) Yan na lang birthday gift niyo saken.

Haven't you noticed something new in my blog? Okay I'll give you a shot. Try looking at the sidebar. See anything different? Yes? Good. I've made a navigation bar. Yaay! :) This may be a blog site but so what? I decided that I should still give it a little twist by making it a little more personal. So there. Hope you enjoy the new 'features'. The Ask Karla part is still under construction but nevertheless everything else is okay.

Wow only a few days before my birthday! This is really exciting. I didn't realize how fast it's coming because of all the schoolwork. Aaah. One week away. Shiyet. I'm excited.

Blog more later. Got some stuff to do. By the way, I'm loving Chem! Woohoo.
Happy Birthday Mendo!

the big IF.

If I were to name a song that would instantly bring back all the painful memories in the past, it would be She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5. It reminds me of all the bitter memories way back in first year and everytime I hear it, I can't help but feel sad. I mean, the lyrics of the song isn't THAT sad but it makes me feel unwanted and betrayed. Never ever play that song to me because it reminds me of someone and something and some issues I'd rather not discuss.

If I were to choose 5 songs that would best describe my feelings towards someone, it would be:

5. I Won't Last A Day Without You by The Carpenters

4. Crazy For You by Madonna

3. Wherever You Will Go by The Calling

2. Out Of My League by Stephen Speaks

1. Broken Sonnet by Hale

If I were to choose a word that I'd really like to use to describe my feelings, it would be nostalgic. It's the bittersweet longing for the past. Longing for something that I used to have and to hold and now I'm not even sure if it's there. If it's still 100% mine. Or is it?

If I were to marry one local celebrity, I would definitely pick Drew Arellano. He's hot, he's cute and he's smart. I really do like him. Too bad he's taken. But one day, he'll be mine. *insert evil laugh here* Hey, Katie Holmes ended up with Tom Cruise, right? So why can't my dream come true?

If I were to be one superhero for a day I would be Wonder Woman. Enough said.

If I were to visit a country that starts with a letter C, I'd go to Croatia. I want to meet Maksim! And besides, it sounds so exotic and adventurous! Hmm.. maybe I really should go there.

If I were to pick a kind of flower that I'd like to receive on any occasion *ehem*, it would be carnations. Pink carnations. or Tulips. I like carnations and tulips. They look so sweet and romantic. Roses, are well, they're okay but they're too cliche. If I'd get to receive even just ONE piece of a pink carnation or tulip, I'd be the happiest little princess. (Of course it also depends on who'll give it to me!)

If I were to pick a place I really hate the most, it would be an alley full of cats. Ugh. Please. I hate cats and I will never like them.

If I were to LEGALLY get mad at someone for one whole day (and legally means I can do mean stuff to her! Hehe), it would (unfortunately) be the lady guard in school. Argh. She makes me soo sick. She is so irritating. She annoys me to death! I wish they put the OLD administration back. And also the other one is a freshie. I dare not mention the name. Thinking about her gives me the creeps. The nerve. >=(

If I were to be a president for one day, I would put all the people in prison! Haha joke. I'd give everyone teddy bears because I believe we all need a hug. But seriously, I'd talk to all the protesters and anti-administration people. I'll sort things out so that the economy will suffer no more.

If I were to be an animal, I would like to be a turtle. Doing things slowly but surely. If you asked me this a few weeks back, I'd probably say frog since I'll get to be kissed by a prince of some sort, but after the dissection, ugh. Never mind. Turtles have always been one of my choices for pets. I never had one but I think they'll make good pets. (Turtle-owners, is this true?! Disprove me if it isn't!)

If I were to become one famous celebrity for one day, I'd gladly be Audrey Hepburn. She was for me, the most beautiful and elegant actress there ever was. I admire her poise and glamour. I wish I could be just like her someday. "Oh, I love Tiffany's!"

If I were to star in a movie, I'd like it to be 50 First Dates. It's so sweet that it makes my endorphins all jumpy. Hehe. I'll also consider Paris When It Sizzles, Breakfast At Tiffany's, An Affair To Remember and Dirty Dancing 2.

If I were to go to Europe, the top 5 countries I'll go to will be:

5. Italy

4. Croatia

3. Greece

2. France

1. Austria

If I were to wish for one material thing for my birthday it would be the complete Gossip Girl set. I know you'd probably think of me as a poor girl because I only have the first two books but honestly, I don't have enough money to buy continuously one after the other! So yes, I need the whole set. I really need to know what'll happen to Blair, Nate and Serena. Giving me the whole set will definitely make my, not just my day, but my YEAR. Wow. Imagine that. Haaayy. I lurve New York.

If I were to wish for one non-material thing for my birthday it would be spending the day without hearing anything about the people I hate the most or people who have done something that bruised me emotionally. They may not know it but they have greatly affected me in some way. One of them already left (thank God), one of them is still in school in the SAME department as I am, the other one, well I'd rather not mention. She's someone I used to like, but you know well, it's complicated. I'd rather not mention. I do not hate her but, oh crap.

If I were to change one attitude I have, it would be not forgetting. Because unfortunately, I hold grudges. I do not let go of things and people who have hurt me. Whether they are aware of this or not, there will always be a part of me that will NEVER forget what they did to me. Betrayal, stealing, unknown "selfishness" of some sort or whatever, I just cannot forget that. And though I will not literally kill them or hurt them, I will probably forever hold that grudge that THIS person did something to me that I really despise or don't like. And also, there's another thing I'd like to change. It would be absorbing. Yes, up to now, I admit, I still have bottled up emotions deep inside. I just cannot admit them because I know people will call me over-acting when I do. It all somehow boils down to the fear that people will not want me anymore because I have too much jealousy or pride. I admit, there are feelings I want to admit to people but I just can't because I feel like I've said it to them for how many times and yet I still feel the same way. Is there something wrong with me? Why can't I FORGET? Why can't people understand that when I DON'T LIKE SOMEONE, I just don't? Why can't people understand that I feel really bad when they STILL do something that they know I don't want them to do? See, when they keep on doing this, I prefer to just keep all my feelings inside. After all, they don't listen to me anyway.






Whoever reads this blog, no ill feelings okay? You're probably not the one I'm talking about anyway. But if you think you are, well I'm sorry. This is my blog and I have all the authority to say what I want to say. Besides I did not mention any names so how'd you know it was you?

10 days to go before the 26th.

I need to go to school.

I need to see someone.

I need A HUG.

badly.


"Stacy's mom has got it going on.."

Boo. Unwanted LSS.

going back.

Oh God forgive me. Yesterday, I killed a frog. I sliced a frog. I touched a frog's heart, liver, intestines, lungs and all the other icky yucky parts. I cannot believe I survived. I'm a frog killer.


Goodbye frog.


I have a very, very beautiful picture of the sky. I took it yesterday afternoon while waiting for the other class. I was so shocked by how pretty the sun made the cloud look like it had a silver lining. It was the most beautiful sunset I have ever seen. Swear. The rays of the sun beautifully lighted the other parts of the sky and the other clouds had a touch of purple. It was perfect. Maybe I'll post it soon. God is so great. Sometimes I want to give up, I just want to surrender. But when I see these kind of things, I have second thoughts. Why leave life? It's so beautiful. There's so much left for me to explore. Maybe there will be better skies or sunsets. Thank God for the beauty of life.


I'm so damn tired of hearing news about rallies and protests. I mean, it's not that I don't care. It's just that, it won't stop. Everyday, every week. It's just so sad. Good thing there are still things to smile about. Like the Pacquiao brothers and Lara Quigaman. Despite the many turmoils, they still make me feel proud to be a Filipino. I'm so sick of having to write essays about how difficult the situation is and all that. That's why I wrote a haiku about the Pacquiao brothers for SocSci. It may not be as dramatic as the other's works but hey, at least mine doesn't give off such negative vibes.


Today we went to Adamson University, formerly St. Theresa's College Manila, the school where my mom spent her kindergarten & grade school years. We had mass and the homily was really nice. Even though I'm not a Theresian (and my mo says she's more of a Paulinian), I can totally relate to what the priest was saying. St. Theresa's is an exclusive school for girls and was one of the best private schools in Manila. It closed it doors in 1980 and gave its keys to Adamson. The Theresians never failed to celebrate and hold reunions. every year, but this time they decided to go back to where they really belong, in the San Marcelino campus. The priest was saying something about the "grace of physical memory." Why go back to this place which is not St. Theresa's anymore? Why not go to STC-Quezon City? Because, he said, that is where your heart is. In that same campus, in that same quadrangle. He also said something about babies inside the womb. Normally we think that unborn babies have no feelings, no emotions, no thoughts. But what we don't know is that the biggest development and formation of a baby's life happens inside the womb. And STC (or in my case, SPCP) can be compared to that. Our alma mater is the place where we grow and learn to be the people we will be in life. I was very moved by his homily. Most of the time, I take my school for granted. I hate the new administration, I hate the new "sidewalks", I hate the new policies, I hate the teachers (not all of them though), I hate the subjects. But someday, I'm gonna miss them. I'm going to miss walking down the halls, I'm going to miss singing the hymn that will forever echoe in my head. And I have to admit, most of my beliefs and my opinions were largely influenced by my stay here in St. Paul College. I have 2 years and a half of a school year to go. Barely enough time to witness great changes or miracles. Soon, this school will be just a memory, just a place I will look back to someday. While I'm still in it, I promise I will try to make the most out of it as possible.

"Sweet are the days of girlhood, when friends we loved and cared

those golden links of childhood, whose sympathy we share..

do stay and while the hours away, with us in work and play,

and when we leave our dear old school,

these memories we'll recall,

these memories we'll recall..

Hark! Daughters of the great St. Paul!"

I want a hug.

wharisdat.

1. The disection of frogs was postponed.
2. We were only half-day today so Hurrah!
3. Today is the official start of the second semester and I am so excited to have Physics on Friday! Miss Toledo, alright! I know I'm gonna love that subject.
4. The recollection tomorrow was cancelled.
5. But the confession today pushed through.

I feel so sleepy and yet I still managed to drag myself out of the bed and blog. Well I also have to do my assignment in SocSci so I can say that I am using the computer legally. Anyway, I still feel a little bad today. It's as if a part of me is missing but I just can't figure out what it is. It's as if I'm incomplete today. I feel like something or someone is missing and I can't quite put my finger on it. I feel so bothered. What is happening to me? Am I going crazy again? I hope this is not the start of another weird syndrome.

Have you ever felt so jealous of someone you know you shouldn't be jealous of? Say, a friend's friend, for example. Let's call them A and B. A always tells B to take care and eat meals and all that, and there's no problem with that since there's nothing going on between A & B. But you can't help but feel really envious because it's as if A is always B's first priority. B doesn't even tell you if she's going to meet up with A. You like A but there's just something about her that makes you dislike her. When they fight, B is sooo sad but when you fight it's as if she doesn't care at all. You have no right to be jealous of A because A is well, not in your level. There can never really be anything more between her and B but just really best friends. But it's driving you insane because B is always there when A calls for her and oh God she can never ever say no to her. B keeps secrets from you because of A and though you wouldn't want to think ill about them, you can't help but feel really mad and sad that B is sort of ditching you for A.

I know it's a complicated situation but hey, it happens to some of us. It's just a thought. It's one of the things that's bothering me right now. I can't just forget about this. And I can't just blurt it out either. B would really get hurt if she finds out that I have this grudge on A. And I don't want that to happen. But I still feel bad. Really bad. Sigh.

My birthday's coming up. I'm really excited although I'm just really not showing it. I always feel all giddy and happy every year when my birthday is drawing closer. It's as if no matter how many problems I have, i must smile for my day is about to come. It's an escape to reality. For one whole day, I could forget about them, no one can piss me off because it's MY day, my special day. Everytime treats you nicely, gives you gifts, makes you feel happy, nothing ever goes wrong. For that whole 24 hours, I feel like a true princess. I enjoy every minute of it and my smile is plastered across my face for the whole day. When people question your weird or happy or unexplainable behavior, you just have to say, "It's my birthday today!" It's like your license to whatever you do on that day. It makes you forget "real life" and live your "fantasy" (okay not really fantasy, but a day that is not ordinary) life, even for just a few hours. So when is your day of delight? Mine's 14 more days to go. :)

It's 4:30 and I'm still not finished with that freakin' Soc Sci assignment. I have to go.
I changed the chatbox by the way. The Tag-board one was f*cked up. I don't know what happened. Oh well, keep on commenting and tagging, okay?





"and i won't last a day without you.."

froggy frog day.

I am soo happy today. I got very good scores in Soc Sci and English! I can't believe that all my late night study sessions paid off. I'm so happy. My mom was right. All those sacrifices will bring me good fruits in the end. And it did. Mothers know best.

Tomorrow we're going to disect frogs. Eww. Hope is my lab partner and I'm glad she's the one who's supposed to bring it. We already disected frogs back in 6th Grade and believe me I really pitied the frog! I wanted to cry when we were slicing its body. The formaline solution (is that what you call it?) didn't seem to work and so I assumed he was feeling the knife slowly cutting through his skin. He was moving in pain and I swear if he had a voice he would probably yell out an ear-piercing scream. I hope our frog tomorrow will be asleep or numb when we perform the experiment so that I wouldn't have to sob while looking at his open body.

Speaking of frogs, I suddenly remembered the story of the Frog Prince (the fairy tale, not the chinovela). I was watching an episode of Sabrina the Teenage Witch and it was about Sabrina kissing Harvey and turning him into a frog. It's a sort of witch thing about first kisses between mortals and witches. She has to take the test of true love and kiss him again (as a frog) to turn him back into a human. It's really sweet, you know? It makes me wonder, what if I have to kiss a frog to prove my undying love to someone? Would I take the risk? Would I be brave enough to let my lips TOUCH the grimy and slimy frog? I don't know. Maybe I will, if I really love that person. I mean, if that is the only way to let him know that I really my love is real, then why not? If you think about it, the frog could symbolize your partner's imperfections. Would you still kiss your loved one even if he or she has messy hair, is lazy, has pimples or whatnot? Of course you will, because you love him/her. It's about accepting him/her even though it means taking chances and having to adjust because of his/her weaknesses. Haaay. The feeling of love has got me all mushy again.

Yaay we already have a frog! Is he my prince? Naah.

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight..

Ribbit, ribbit.

so kiss me.

bittersweet.

Yaay new layout! it's called Bittersweet featuring a picture of the sunset. Don't you find sunsets amazing? I mean, they are so beautiful. Everytime I look at one, I can't help but feel in love, happy, sad, excited, all kinds of emotions. I don't always get to catch the sunset but everytime I do, it's always in that perfect orange-y color, the sun about to rest. It leaves a feeling of hope that tomorrow will be a new day. I always feel relaxed and relieved when I see it, especially after a very tiring day. It's as if the sun carries my problems away with it and leaves me with calmness and serenity. And this picture, is definitely one of the best sunsets I have ever seen. It just makes me want to smile. Thank You, Lord for giving us very special sunsets not once, but everday in our lives.

How many days left till my birthday? I'm not counting. It seems like it's sooo far away. But I'm excited about it. And also our trip to Bangkok! Can't wait! Shopping. Wow.

By the way, our recollection's on Thursday. DOn't forget your reco letters.

Mwaaah.

i'm back. am i dreaming?

WOW after how many weeks.. I am really back. So what's been happening with me?

1. PTs are over. Whew. I hope it turns out good.

2. It's October! Who's birthday is coming up?

3. I'm excited about our Bangkok trip.

4. I play the guitar na! It's for music.

5. I'm tired (as usual).

I haven't been getting any real sleep these past weeks. I haven't even completed 8 hours. I feel so tired everyday, but what can I do? Time won't let me sleep as dreamily as before. Lots of homework, projects, quizzes. Argh. It's enough to make one insane. I'm so drained. I need some energy-boosters. Haha.

These days, I've been hooked with my guitar (well actually, my cousin's) just because we have to learn how to play it for Music. I can play basic chords already! Yaay, achievement. I don't know if I'm going to really play this passionately as I play the piano. But oh well, nothing's wrong with being multi.. uhm, multi-instrumented? Haha.

No time to blog about lots of things. But promise, I'll get you updated as soon as I'm flush. And thanks to all the who commented and tagged. Love to all.

wake me up.. to reality.

So what's really with Big Brother that's got everybody talking? Everywhere I go, I hear Big Brother. Everytime I turn to Channel 2, I see Big Brother. Pinoy Big Brother is everywhere, and it's taken the country by storm. But why is it so controversial? What's with it?

You have been a witness of how hooked I am with this show even though I only started watching it these past few weeks. At first, I really didn't like the idea of locking people inside the house for 100 days with no communication. I mean, what would we get out of it? Bored people prbably. But I was wrong. It showed us how people really live the simple life. No phones, no TV, no media. Just them, and their housemates. And it was actually very entertaining to see people from all walks of life try to adjust to each other's attitudes. The tasks and rules made the show even more intruiging.

And I think the audience saw nothing wrong with that. But I think what we all didn't anticipate was the fact that these housemates could still live the life they lived, being their own liberal selves. They CAN fall in love. They CAN kiss and make out. They CAN do what they want. Because they ARE inside their own world. They don't know what's happening outside them. They don't know and they don't care. These things will really happen. And this is reality. People really do fall in love. People really do kiss and make out. And people really do what they want. The only difference is, there's no cameras, no evictions. So why are we all mad about it? It only reflects how we really are. I understand that the MTRCB is just doing their job of filtering out as much sexual activities they can in the show and are doing it for the benefit of the youth as well as all the people watching it. And I also understand that some of the audiences are either too young or too old or aged to accept the show but I also want to voice out my opinion. The show is a mirror of real life. It isn't scripted, it isn't fake. It has all the drama we find in teleseryes, only it's true. If they think the show is not advisable for children, well it is the parent's jobs to see to it that their children do not watch it. And if there are children who do watch it, it is their responsibility to explain to them what it is all about. So for me, the show isn't bad. The whole perception of the show depends on how you see it, and for me, it is just life. If I am not brave enough to watch it, to see reality unfold before my eyes, then it is like I am not brave enough for reality. So yes, I am a Big Brother Fan. And I am proud of it.

I am sooooo sad about JB's eviction last night. I know he might be a bit arrogant but he really is a sweet guy. He loves Say and she loves him back. How I wish they'll still go strong even after 60 more days of no communication. I so love them.

BTW, I watched Lovestruck at SM a while ago. I actually liked the story. It's not so jologs. Laughtrip and kilig. It is better than I expected. Go ahead and watch it.

"wake me up when September comes.."