karla and the city.

Okay, so far I've fooled three people already. =) Hehe.

Happy April Fool's Day, everybody!

For the past fourteen years, I have come to realize that there are two types of dreams: the one that can come true and the one that will forever be "just a dream." I mean sure, you can bombard me with all your "Dreams come true" sayings and whatnot, but I still believe that there are dreams that really cannot come true. Or is better off just being inside our heads. I have been experiencing a dream crisis (if you could call it that) because for the last few years I have NO idea as to what I want to be when I grow up. Okay to make it simpler: what course I want to take after high school. Sure I have my dream school (UP) but how am I supposed to get there if I don't know what course I should take? Thanks to the loving (haha) advice of my mom and titas and lolas and basically everyone else in the family, I've decided that I will take up Accounting. It's one of the most practical courses to take (I wouldn't dare take up Nursing no matter how much moola I can earn. I just can't take all the blood. Ick.) and the money doesn't hurt either. Besides my mom took it and my lola took it. It's also a good pre-law course and well, if after graduation and I decided to not continue law, at least I can be a CPA and earn a pretty good salary. And at least it's inclined to Math, which I love and not to Science, which I abhor. Haha. Of course, that still all depends if I can pass all the entrance tests and requirements but basically that's it. It's all laid down in front of me like a big blueprint and all I have to do is make it happen.

But you know what? I still have another dream. A dream that I know will only stay inside me and will probably never come true but thinking about it is just fun. I want to be a writer. I want to write about politics, our economy, the entertainment scene, myself -- everything. I want to be able to express my feelings on paper (or in my case, the computer) and share it with everyone else. My dream job is to work in a magazine or a newspaper, most probably in New York and I will write about life and everything else. My column will be named, "Karla and The City" or something like that. I'll live in a chic apartment and have my coffee at Starbucks every morning. I'll attend parties and people will approach me and praise me because they were able to relate themselves with my work. I'll be a critically acclaimed writer, and win awards and trophies. But I'll still be the simple girl that I am, meeting with my friends for lunch and talking about our lives. Basically life a la Carrie Bradshaw.

But let's get real, writers these days live a hard life. People are more interested with television and music rather than books. And not all of your works can be successful. It can be a drain to put yourself in a piece and end up being ignored by people. No offense to writers, but I've observed that it doesn't also promise a real and permanent salary. Let's face it, in this economy, you have to have real money with you, and sadly dreams are not enough to make everything happen.

So that is why I keep this blog. Because I know that there will always be a writer in me. I may not be the Carrie Bradshaw of the Philippines or anything like her, but I will always have this strong hold to writing thanks to my blog. Somehow, this blog will be the outlet for my "alternate dream" to shine and come true. So to all the visitors and the people who appreciate this blog, a huge Thank You goes out to all of you because somehow you make my dream come true. OKAY EXTREMELY MUSHY, but true. =)

-oOo-

Yesterday, I spent the whole afternoon at Mikka's with Nica. We just basically slept, ate, talked and slept . If you're going to ask me what the hell is the point of going there if we're just going to bum around, well at least we were bored TOGETHER, not bored individually in our own houses. Haha. I seriously had fun. Nica and Mikka have been my really, really tight friends since the beginning of high school. I mean, sure we've been friends before but we never really clicked until freshman year. You know, the tropas and barkadas change but the three of us are still together. I think we're one unit already, like a family. Aww. =) Yuck. Hehe. Anyway, love to you guys. Mwah.


Total hotness! Ayayayayay!


"san ko hahanapin ang ating nakaraan?
ala-alang kay tamis at kay saya.
ang aking puso'y umaasa.. nananabik sa yo
di mapigil ang damdaming.. nababaliw sa yo.."
-- Takipsilim by Paramita

due to insistent public demand..

..(haha feeling!) I will blog today. And I come with a new layout.

Anyway, I really wasn't supposed to put this up until next week but I just couldn't wait. =) It features my two favorite people, Nathan and Haley from One Tree Hill. It's a scene from Episode 8 (which is already one of my faves!) of Season 3. I used Adobe Photoshop for this once again, and I just played around with the brushes, gradient maps and blend effects. If you look closely, Nathan and Haley are the only ones in full-color in the picture, thus the title Just You And Me. I hope you guys like it because I really, really, really took the time to make this one look great. Comments would be greatly appreciated. =)

We went to Market! Market! again today and since I wasn't really in the mood to go shopping, me and my Kuya consumed our time in Timezone. Okay, laugh at me for saying this, but I'm not really the arcade-type of girl. I really don't spend my weekends shooting people or racing cars and winning tickets but today was really different. Because today I met Time Crisis. It really wasn't new to me since I played it (read: I was just shooting like crazy and didn't care who I killed, it was just for the sake of experience) before during Nica's birthday gig. Nevertheless, the thrill-seeking spirit in me found its way to that one corner and to my surprise I was actually kinda good at it. Good meaning I-lost-my-life-a-couple-of-times-but-I-was-able-to-finish-the-game good. Okay, so after about an hour and four to five swipes of the card later, we were able to finish Time Crisis 2! =) Of course, I couldn't have done it without Kuya, but still -- I felt quite triumphant already knowing that I don't play such games. Not bad for a first timer. After that I tried out Time Crisis 3 but couldn't continue playing because we ran out of money. Oh well. I'm looking forward to my next Timezone visit, though I'm not quite sure when that will be. *wink*

I wish it's Thursday already so that I can watch Scrubs. I just love it! Much better than other medical comedy shows, I swear.

These past few days I have been bonding with my iPod. It's been quite a while since I uploaded good songs in it! And it's all because of my new found friend, Limewire. Oh, my gratitude goes out to all the people behind it. I was able to download a lot of songs/podcasts from OTH and other local bands as well. I must say, this must be pretty great for my trusty mp3 player. I mean, I'm too lazy to rip CDs and transfer them but now, you could just imagine all the wonders Limewire can give me and my iPod! Okay, a little exaggerated, but I hope you get me. I love you Limewire! Without you my iPod would be half-dead and my need for OTH would not be satisfied. Hehe. =)

Speaking of good downloads from Limewire, I highly recommend the OTH Friends With Benefit Soundtrack! It features really good songs from really talented artists like Haley James-Scott (Bethany Joy Lenz) and Nada Surf. I especially liked the songs Always Love, 23, Halo, Feeling A Moment and Missing You. And oh, The Mixed Tape is one definitely catchy tune -- I'm having an LSS! But basically, everything is really good. All the minutes of downloading were worth it! By the way, in my previous post, I think some of you thought I wrote Halo because I said Haley James-Scott was me. I apologize. Actually Halo is a song performed by Haley James-Scott (played by actress Bethany Joy Lenz) for the series and the above-mentioned soundtrack. I guess the wishing-to-be-Haley part of me took over. Sorry. =)

I miss Mocha Valencia. Ever since I found out that it had a shot of liquor in it (which probably explains the feeling afterwards), I had to stop and so I have to wait for FOUR more years before I can fully and legally savor my favorite cup of coffee again. I feel like there has been a void in me looking for Mocha Valencia. I mean, it just tastes so good and it just makes me forget my problems for a little while. But then again, it's because of the liquor and God knows I don't want to be an alcoholic. This paragraph, I guess, is my tribute to my beloved drink. Until we meet again, my dear Mocha Valencia. So I guess I'm back to trusty old Mocha Frap or Iced Latte. Sigh. At least there's still coffee in it. =)

I'm tired. Want. To. Sleep. Zzzzzzzz.


"Don't ever feel that you're alone
I'll never let you down, I'll never leave you dry
Don't fall apart, don't let it go
Carry the notion, carry the notion back to me, to me...

Feeling the moment slip away
Feeling the moment slip away

Cause I'm just like you."
-- Feeling A Moment by Feeder

i'm eating smidgets.

"Charles Bukowski once wrote: 'There will always be something to ruin our lives. It all depends on what or which finds us first. You're always ripe and ready to be taken.'"

Sucks, right? It's always like that. Just when you think everything is perfect already, something will destroy it. Oh well. That's life. Thanks a lot, Charles Bukowski -- whoever you are. Anyway, since it's summer and the temperature's rising (man, i think it's almost 40 degrees!) I decided to write down some hot randomnities. Just for fun. :)

Hotness #1:
Went shopping yesterday. Market! Market! is love. SM Makati is Love. And Surplus Shop is LOOOVE! :)

Hotness #2:
I bought myself new shades. I have a fetish for big shades, if you haven't already noticed that. I don't know if it's just because of the beauty points I get from it (haha!) or because it's the closest I can get to a superhero mask. I can hide in my shades. I feel like a totally different person when I have those big frames covering my eyes. Haha, feeling mysterious.

Gotta love. :)

Hotness #3:
Anyway, later on I'm going to be a princess. We're going to my cousins birthday party and the theme is Disney Princesses. Aww. You know sometimes I kinda wish I was still a kid because I want to be able to play with dolls and toys, watch Playhouse Disney and go to Toy Kingdom LEGALLY. I mean, do you think I can squeal and shout at a sight of the new Disney Princess and Prince dolls?! No. Harhar. Okay, so anyway I'll be wearing my crown once again later on. Heehee. No prince though. He's in Tree Hill. *wink*

Hotness #4:
Currently watching Mean Girls. God, I missed Regina George. She is soo..bitchy. You just can't find the words to explain her. She's like, a goddess. She's hot and she knows it. Now that's Royal Hotness.

Hotness #5:
One Tree Hill is getting better and better by the episode! :) I just love it. And I just watched the promo for Episode 17!! Ahh!! Okay, so I don't want to spoil it for all the other OTH addicts out there *ehem, ehem* so I suggest you just wait. Oh God, I love Limewire. =)

Hotness #6:
I made my own OTH icons! They're just a few and they're quite simple but hope you guys like them. If you do use them, please credit. :) Don't ever try to steal, okay?

Later. Mwah.

"I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that's my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you.."
-- Halo by Haley James Scott (haha, that's me! :P)

my one hundredth post!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Karla!

1. The first domain name ever registered was Karla.com!
2. Karla was originally green, and actually contained cocaine.
3. The smelly fluid secreted by skunks is colloquially known as Karla.
4. Karlaolatry is the mindless worship of Karla.
5. The book of Esther in the Bible is the only book which does not mention Karla.
6. Ancient Greeks believed earthquakes were caused by Karla fighting underground.
7. Two thirds of the world's eggplant is grown in Karla.
8. If your ear itches, this means that someone is talking about Karla!
9. Karla is 1500 years older than the pyramids.
10. It took Karla 22 years to build the Taj Mahal!

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Congratulate me everyone,
this is my one hundredth post!

Wow! I didn't know until I saw it in my dashboard. This is a pretty big deal, isn't it? One hundred blog posts for Bombastarr. Oh yeah, this is so cool. So this means, you've got to show me some love: comment and tag, people!

I loved the Trivia Tips. *looks up* Karlaolatry? Well that sounds pretty interesting. Wonder if there are people worshipping me? Hehe, kidding. I was laughing my head off when I read it because the results were Hilarious, with a capital H. I contain cocaine? I'm green? And I built the Taj Majal? Maybe in another lifetime. :)

I spent my last day as a sophomore pretty much just lazing around. Haaay. I'm going to miss the Toledudes. We may not be the BESTest section, or the favorite but I'm still proud that I'm here simply because I love everyone in my class. Sure, my whole tropa is in St. Philomena, but in my class I know I am loved. I am not compared to anyone, no one is pressuring me to be someone else, I can do what I want and I can just be myself. I have my friends here and I can pretty much say that my past ten months went okay because of them. And of course, I LOOOOOVE our adviser, Miss Toledo! She rocks! As in, with all the jokes and hirits. I'm gonna miss everyone -- from the bitchiest to the sweetest people of St. Gertrude. My love goes out to all of you, my dear Toledudes. I had fun being the sexy pressie. :) Haha.

School is finally over. Finally. I cannot believe that my second year life really IS over. When I look back at how I spent the past ten months, I'm not so happy because I know that I could've done better. I wish I had strived more or tried to be more responsible. I wish I didn't spend so much time worrying over the small things, and concentrated on the more important ones. I wish I didn't hold on too tightly to some things that eventually, I had to let go. I wish I didn't let time slip away. But then again, I couldn't go back and change everything. In a way, I tried to see the positive side of things. Maybe this year really was my wake-up call probably because God wanted me to realize and learn things the hard way. I really don't want people telling me "Sayang," or "I told you so," simply because I know that this was meant to be. Sure, I would have done better if I didn't procrastinate too much, and it wouldn't hurt that much if I learned to let go. But then again, I wouldn't learn if I didn't make these mistakes. I can't go on my whole life just listening to what people say, can I? Of course, I had to fall down too. But what makes me really proud of myself this school year is that even though I knew I fell at some point, I was able to pick myself up and I'm still proud of me. Though there are bits of resentment or guilt in me, I'm letting it go because all I'm gonna bring with me are the lessons I've learned. So yes, I'm accepting my mistakes but I'm going to move on to my next destination. I'm not going to let all the blunders block my way. I'm finally going to let all the pain, the tears and the bruises GO, and when I look back at my soph life I just want to remember the good times. So long, Karla the Sophomore. Au revoir on your journey to Junior-hood! :)

Yesterday, I realized a lot of things:

1. You shouldn't expect things to happen, because when you do, they DON'T.
2. The tapsilog at Maty's was the BOMB. You should go there. For P47, you're in for one heck of a meal.
3. Having a cam phone really does have advantages.
4. One of the horrible feelings in the world is expecting to see someone after closing your eyes and realizing they're not there when you open them.
   
5. Drinking Lemon Lime-flavored Slush Puppie calms the senses.
6. I was secretly a Powerpuff Girl thanks to the Cartoon Network award.
7. You shouldn't forget your hanky especially when you know there'll be a program at your microwave-like gym.
8. Parting your hair at a different side does wonders.
9. Watching The Notebook really has an effect. Geez.
10. Laughing does not mean everything is okay. Trying to be okay is not okay.
    
11. Whatever happens, James Lafferty will always be HOT. (as if I don't know that!)

Twins: Kaila and me.
I'll post more last day pics in my friendster.

I guess this ends my one hundredth post. :)
So I'll just leave you with this. Check it out!

Oh and btw, to the person I always sit next to in all the pullout classes, I forgive you. I just hope you read this. Love to all. Mwah.

"At this moment, there are six billion, four hundred seventy million, eight hundred eighteen thousand, six hundred seventy one people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil.

Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is ONE."

heaven, are you really waiting outside the door?

Nathan: But I am. Haley, you got a tattoo for god sakes. It just freaks me out a little bit, because obviously this whole thing with us means a lot to you. I just don't want to do anything to pressure you. Or drive you away. Even though sometimes I can't help it. Just like I can't help that I fell in love with you. Cause I did. I love you, Haley. And it scares me, a little bit, but, there it is.

Haley: Wow. There it is. I love you, too.

Well I guess you can call me lucky because once again, I am blogging at our school's CAI Lab. Whee! Oh, sheer joy!! :) Anyway, we were asked by our teacher to check Geometry test papers and of course, I tried to finish my job asap, so that I could blog. Hehe.

This is going to be one sabog post.

I spent the weekend at Batangas. And I was able to have my first taste of summer last Saturday since I swam in the village pool! Swimming. Aaaahh. It's been quite a while since I last splashed myself in a pool filled with ice-cold water. Somehow, I forgot about the heat of the sun and for the first time, I actually enjoyed it. Of course, I got a little darker after getting out of the pool but I don't know, some sort of magic happened and after a few hours, my tan wore off. Haha! So I'm white again. Oh well. :)

Fell in love with the song "Heaven" by The Fire Theft. It was played in the scene where Nathan and Haley first said their I love you's. And as much as I want to hold back my tears, I couldn't. It's just so..beautiful. Okay, here I go again with my addiction, but really, watching that makes my heart melt. Want to hear the song? Go here.

Heaven. I do hope it's waiting outside the door. Because what I seriously need right now is heaven. Bliss. Euphoria. Happiness. My panacea. Something that will make every pain go away. Something that will make my heart know and feel that it's okay. Someone that will hold me tight and tell me that everything is going to be alright. Can you hear me, Nathan Scott?!

I'm so psyched about our summer getaway to Bangkok! We'll be staying there for a week. Wow, seven days of shopping! *wide grin* Indeed, it is a shopper's paradise. Our last stay there was only lasted for four days but you can bet I enjoyed it. It's somewhat similar to the Philippines but the culture is so amazing. The people are very friendly and respectful. It is such a beautiful country. Sigh. Can't wait.

Welcome to the blogging world, Andrea!
Welcome back, Cecile!
Miss kita Cathe kahit katabi lang kita. Hehe. :)

Wednesday's our last day and we're off to freedomland! Only a few more days to go. And it's the end of my soph life. Finally. I've been waiting for that day since the beginning of the school year! Haha. Better enjoy the last few days.

This is MY love. Nathan Scott.

"Heaven,
Are you really waiting outside the door?
Never thought I'd hear the words before the road

Sever
It's the simple things that are so hard to grasp
Can't find myself in all the days that passed
But I can feel it when it shines
Nevermind, I'm falling in love with you
Can't find the road that runs through
Falling in love with you."

-- Heaven by The Fire Theft

tragedy.

George Bernard Shaw once said:
"There are two tragedies in life: One is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it."

But Peyton said:
"Yeah, losing your heart's desire is tragic. But gaining your heart's desire? It's all you can hope for... And if having that is tragic, then give me tragedy. Because, I wouldn't give it back for the world."

Ahh..the tragedy of love. People around me who fall in love, unfortunately, almost always ends up in misery. It's sad to think that the most powerful thing in the world is the most painful thing as well. And it scares me to death, knowing that when you give your heart to someone, you will be left vulnerable: to hurt and to pain. So why do people fall in love then? Because, as what Peyton said, it's all we can hope for. I cannot say that I have never fallen in love, of course I did. And though it's not like the love you guys are thinking (puhleez I'm boyfriend-less and I'm not looking), but it's probably enough to be considered as giving your heart away. We all get hurt, tears always well up in our eyes. But why, oh why, do we keep on coming back to the one we love? This is probably one of the questions I will forever ask and will always ponder upon. Probably there's no answer to this one. I only know one thing: falling in love may be tragic, it may be sad, it may bring us painful memories and unbearable losses, but it does bring magic and color to our life. And though sometimes we must let go for a little while, we must not lose our hope, and thewillingness to wait for this "tragedy." Because once again, like what Peyton said: I wouldn't give it back for the world.

I'm currently in super emo mode. A while ago, I was singing along (with matching head bang and guitar strokes! haha) to Lunes, Nobela and other punchy senti-rock tunes in my iPod. For the first time in how many days, I was once again so drowned in my emotions for I felt like the songs were written for me. Maybe Join The Club and I have some common ancestral psychic abilities? Hmm? Well, whatever. Lunes is still running through my mind right now and I can go ballistic any minute. Aaaaahh! Where art thou, superhero?

Why do Blair and Nate breakup?! After everything being okay in the sixth book, things go berserk in the seventh -- again. I can't believe it. I actually thought they're gonna be perfectly in love once more and they'll be loyal, but oh crap, Nate gets all baked and he freakin' forgets about Blair. Argh! Now this is one of the things that make me go crazy (aside from OTH). It's the Gossip Girl series, and I can't help but feel so connecte with the characters, even though I'm not a rich-bratty heiress and I don't live in a luxe apartment/suite in New York City. If Haley is to One Tree Hill, then Blair is to Gossip Girl. Although I'm not as bitchy as her, we dream of the same things, we like the same kind of guys, we react in similar ways and we both wish for happy endings. I hope Cecily Von Ziegesar gives justice to Blair and finally bring her and Nate together for good. I mean, she's suffered so much and she's so in love with him! She may be stupid for always welcoming Nate back into her arms but I guess we can't blame her for not being able to let go. After all, Nate IS hot. *wink*

It's funny how the characters I can both relate to, Haley Scott and Blair Waldorf, fell for guys with the same name: Nathan. WHOA. What's this about Nathans all over being hot and sizzling?

Spread the love! I'm out. =)

I think I really do. Badly.

"People who are meant to be
always find their way in the end."

at sa muli magbabalik sa 'tin ang lahat..

What do you get when you put together a beautiful song, an addicting TV series, a fun night at a friend's house, comforting hugs, tears, smiles, sweat, blood, all the time in the world (well -- almost), and a Karla?

You get a new and blissful layout.

I am back my dears. And yes, our exams are FINALLY over. Say goodbye to the long nights of cramming and the grueling battle with temptations (to computer and TV, of course!) because the school year is finally over. Well for the honor students, at least. We took the test first so we have a couple of weeks or so to enjoy the rest of the school year! Hooray!

I spent the last few hours doing this whole new layout. And it looks pretty cool to me. I think this is my favorite already. Remember how I said that I'm going to change the crappy one when I don't feel much like crap anymore? That was yesterday. Because yesterday, the skies were clear and I KNEW that things are finally good. I'm done with wishing because my wish is here right in front of me already: happiness. Thus came this layout. And for those who will ask, "Why Royal Hotness?" Because I'm a royalty *wink* and I'm hot *wink, wink!*

Speaking of heat, I suddenly remembered that in a few weeks' time the hard torches of the sun will shine for us again (haha, Dawn in the Heart of Africa) and once more, I will get heat stroke. Okay, so not the real one but something close to that. Yesterday the airconditioner in our room broke (yeah I know, what are the oods?!) and the temperature was thirty-something degrees. So you could just imagine the look and the smell of everyone! Haha. Ick. We were all so tired pa since we had PE and oh, it's just horrible. Don't get me wrong, I like sunny days I just don't like the heat that comes with it. It makes me feel so annoyed and pissed off and it puts me a bad mood. Oh well, glad I have my sunglasses and cap with me for the whole summer.

Went to Mikka's house yesterday and had dinner there. Totally enjoyed it. Love you, Hopefools! And our new friend (nyeh), Aica. Hehe. :)

Once again, Join the Club does its wonders. First, Nobela and now Lunes. I can't get it off my system! I never really appreciated the beauty of the song until I heard it a few days back. The melody and lyrics blended together so perfectly. The effect of the song is unexplainable. And listening to it just makes me drown in so much emotions. It is indeed a beautiful song. Bravo, Join the Club!

Nica surprisingly burned me Episode 13 of OTH and she was right: it is one of the best episodes! The thunderstorm weaved their stories together and it led to avery happy ending. I liked how things turned out, especially for Nathan and Haley. I guess you could say that episode matched perfectly with how I feel because almost everyone there was happy and things were finally okay. See how my life is turning out to be a big One Tree Hill scenario? :)

Apparently, someone has expressed his/her anger towards me because I post a lot of my pictures in my blog. Well my dear visitor let me tell you something: This is MY blog and I have the right to post and write whatever I want here. Though I respect your opinion, it won't change my perception of myself. And why hide in a pseudonym? Are you afraid that I will find out about you? Then you shouldn't go aroung bashing other people because you should look at yourself first. Who told you to come anyway? If you don't like it here, then just leave. And just so you know that I'm not mad at you, I have something for you:

Now, do you hate me more? :)

Sorry for the long and sabog post. That's what you get when you take me away from the computer for how many days. Hehe. Love to all who commented and tagged. I missed you! :)

"Unang araw naninibago pa't
sa pakiwari ay may katiyakan na
at sa isang iglap, mayroong magaganap
at sa muli magbabalik sa 'tin ang lahat.."
-- Lunes by Join The Club